Bella’s POV
Andy pulled me down to reception and booked us another room, as far away from shaun as possible. We ended up on the very top floor, tucked up in a dark single room sharing the bed and my iPod. It was only just after 7 and Andy wasn’t in the mood for going out and getting dinner with everyone else so we ended up getting a pizza delivered to us. It was so much more intimate up here, away from the noise and people. Away from the jokes, away from the judgement. I had a feeling that although everyone had forgiven me, they still didn’t like being around me. It was awkward. Being around Andy felt right, he stuck by me since I got dragged here, when Imogen went off and left us alone. Being with him up here, it was warm, the closest to a perfect dream coming true that I was ever going to get. The best time I’d had in so long. After the pizza, I had a shower to wash the junk from the park out of my hair, I pulled my new shampoo and conditioner from one of my shopping bags, the scent of my old ones kept me thinking in the past. Kept reminding me who I was, and I wasn’t that person anymore.
I was just getting undressed when Andy banged on the door. Luckily, I was still in my bra and undies because he opened the door and stuck his head in. The first thing I noticed was he had no shirt on but only a pair of undies, he left the door open behind him. Kissing me softly on the lips, he pulled me into the shower. The water was hot, steaming up the room. This was how we started, in the shower, and trust me, this was not how we were going to end. I pushed myself up against him, pressing for another kiss. He tasted so good, I wanted to go further. I was ready. I knew Andy felt the same way, but we didn’t get that far. We were kissing under the water, leaning into each other but somehow, someone managed to find us. Andy hadn’t locked the door so they just walked straight in and looked in, I heard the footsteps but I didn’t bother to stop kissing Andy. Only when we heard the ‘nice underwear but put some clothes on’ did we break apart and look to see who it was. It was Shaun. Andy’s eyes flashed with anger and he yelled at him “JUST GET THE FUCK OUT, SHAUN” before slamming the bathroom door in his face. He started to kiss me again, but the magic of the moment was gone. I felt it and Andy was too grumpy. Sighing, I shut off the water and wrapped myself in a towel.
I didnt want to be part of their fight, if they had one, so I stayed in the bathroom and blow-dried my hair instead, leaving Andy to go out there in nothing but a soaking wet pair of undies. I couldn’t hear what they were saying over the noise coming out of my hair drier, I didn’t stop the hairdryer until every hair was dry and straight, hanging in a heavy blonde curtain in my eyes. I had pajamas in the room with me so I got dressed. Looking in the mirror, I saw a different person than who I used to see. And this made me happy.
I hesitated before opening the door, listening hard to see if I could hear yelling. I could hear them talking but it didnt sound like they were yelling, so I twisted the door handle, opening it just enough to look through. Shaun was standing with his arms across his chest looking bored while Andy was ranting, his eyes narrowed and hand waving around like a spastic. I snuck through the door and took a step toward them just as Shaun started speaking ‘Andy, get over it’
‘no. I’m over it Shaun.’
‘I’M FUCKING SORRY, OKAY?’ Shaun yelled at the top of his voice.
I walked over to Andy wrapping my arms around his waist. ‘…maybe we should drop it, Andy’ I muttered into his ear. He moaned and kissed my cheek.
’Fine Shaun, just leave me out of your jokes’
‘Okay, fine but don’t stay mad’ he said in a happier tone before walking back out the door.
Andy kissed me hard, pushing me against the wall and pressing himself into me, but the magic was gone. I still wanted him more than anything but not now. Shaun took the magic away.
He realised I wasn’t into it as much as before and after a few minutes broke the kiss off, walking over to the bed and falling onto it. I layed down next to him, he played with my hair, running it between his fingers. There wasn’t much to be said, we could get there one day. But not today. After a few minutes of silence, I had to break it. ‘Look, Andy, I love you but it just dosent feel right yet’ I told him in a soft voice, trying to take the dying out of the fact that I had denied him sex. He took it well considering he had already had a bad afternoon, he just rolled over and wrapped his arms around me and leant against my neck. It was peaceful, only 9:30 but we turned off the lights and lay together with my iPod again. Andy’s breathing against my neck, was the closest I had felt to someone in so long, was the best feeling ever
