Imogens pov the moment I saw jumpnow I forgot everything. I forgot I was supposed to be behaving, I forgot myself. The past few days, they’d been hell on earth. The girls who knew who jumpnow was and knew I was bradies sister gave me dirty looks, death stares. The ones who I’d left behind when I went with Bradie ignored me, I ignored them. Callie kept giving me raised eyebrows and evil stares. The bitches, sensing a fight tried to egg it on. I couldn’t wait to leave. And they wonder why kids hate school. When we walked out of the school gates, teacher following us and still yelling at me it was the best feeling I’d had in so long, it was a light shining in my living hell. Now I could go back to my life. I’d never really understood the attraction that people saw in cutting, or self harm. It seemed a little weird to me but I never judged anyone, it must be hard to be that out of control of your feelings. Until ash tried to explain to me. Until last night. The message I left on bradies phone, I’d been so desperate. Belinda was driving me insane, I was so over everyone. So over the dirty looks. So i did it. Now, I had a cut up my arm, a reminder of my desperation. But jumpnow, being jumpnow didn’t flinch at all even though I knew he hated blood and stuff like that. We walked back to belindas, we held hands the whole way, I felt like a fake. At school, I wasn’t myself, my skirt was only just below my undies, my hair was curled and I had a full face of makeup on. At school, I wore a mask. I didn’t want anyone to know who I really was, I didn’t want to show what I was really like. So what if half the girls in my year thought I was a slut, thought I was just looking for attention, I knew that was the last thing I wanted. Most people, do the whole goth thing to show they’re hurting, the black hair, the pale makeup but my way was better. It showed them I was happy, which I wasn’t really but they didn’t have to know that did they? Jumpnow told me he missed me, nobody had ever told me that before, I wasn’t really that popular. Our plan to leave was going great until we got to Belindas to get my stuff, she let me pack my stuff but just as we were about to leave she flipped and slammed the door in Jumpnows face with me on the inside. It was so unfair, so close but so damn far now. She locked me in my room, before going outside and abusing jumpnow, and Bradie who’d just turned up. They fought for a good 15 minutes before Belinda won, and as they disappeared I let the tears fall. When I looked in the mirror it looked like I was falling apart, my mascara was making dirty little tracks in my caked on foundation, and my wrist was hurting again. I flopped down on my bed and put my headphones in, trying to block out this hell hole and escape. I fell asleep with black veil brides blasting my ear drums, I woke up when it was dark to something vibrating in my back pocket. It was my phone, and the message on my screen made me smile. ‘don’t go to sleep I’m waiting for you, xo jumpnow’ not being the type of person that listens to what I’m told, I fell asleep anyway, just wanting time to go quicker.
