Imogens pov
I’d just slapped my best friend, I’d just screamed at her. I’d just made the biggest mistake I could have.
Now I was alone, drunken, desperate and angry.
Shaun still hadn’t said much at all to me, I just wanted to talk to him.
I ended up sitting in the bathroom alone, my stomach was churning and my makeup was all smudged and dripping. The door clicked open and Shaun appeared, but zipped his fly up when he saw me in the corner.
“Shaun I’m so sorry for everything. I’m sorry. Im so damn fucking sorry” I managed to spit out before collapsing into tears again. Being rescued no longer seemed like such an amazing thing. He looked awkward and for a minute I though he was going to run off but he sat down next to me and put his arm around me. For the first time since I’d been back he talked properly, explained and we had an incredible talk.
“are you pissed off at me?”
“no. I’m mad at myself. I wanted you to stay away, I need time with ash without remembering what went on between us..”
Blah blah blah the rest isn’t really important.. Until..
“thankyou for everything Shaun.”
“no probs, you coming out?”
“no. Not yet, I need some time away.”
“would it be awkward if I pee then? Cos I really really need to” he smiled awkwardly and I turned around to give him as much privacy as I could without actually having to leave the room. I suspected it to be really awkward, especially since he was really loud, but it wasn’t.
I realized I didn’t really love him, I was in love with the way we got along. It was more of a best friend relationship then what he had with ashley.
“…. Ims? Will you come out?”
“I don’t know, I don’t really want to face the music yet..”
He shrugged and disappeared leaning me alone with my thoughts and andys razor. I’d done it before, why shouldn’t I do it again? But before I had the chance Ashley appeared, that girl never gave up did she? I didn’t want to talk to her.
But Shaun appeared behind her, gripping her waist and asking me to come sit with them in a quiet corner. “only if she isn’t there.” I know it’s selfish but I really wanted some more time alone with Shaun. I saw them look at each other and mutter a bit, before he hugged her and gave her a kiss and she disappeared.
We ended up sitting in andys spare room, on the bed, drinking vodka and talking again. He was so easy to talk to. One thing led to another and before I knew it I was kissing him…
I woke up an hour later, Shaun was still passed out and pantless, shit what had I done! I didn’t even really love him, he was just like my best friend. That’s 2 major mistakes in a couple of hours, im really screwed now.
