Ashs pov
My room was cold, I could hear shauns voice in my head still, I just wanted it all to go away but I promised I wouldn’t cut. So I decided to get smashed again. I had no friends around here so I drunk alone, the straight vodka left an acid taste on my tongue, a burning in my throat. A whole bottle later I couldn’t remember anything, i felt sick and I was nearly unconscious. I don’t know what made me do it but I got in my fathers car. Shaun kept trying to ring me, my phone kept buzzing but that just made me push my foot down harder. Through my tears I couldn’t see a thing, it was almost 2am and I was remembering every stupid thing that had happened. This reminded me of Shaun. This for some reason made me pick up the phone. ‘ash!! I love you please come back’ I could hear him trying not to cry which practically broke what was left of my heart ‘I I can’t. Shaun I’m scared’ I admitted. I felt sick and I was scared, I was having trouble concentrating on the road. something bad was going to happen, I could feel it. ‘don’t be scared ash it’s going to be fine’ was the last thing I heard before I screamed as loud as I could as I lost control of the car. I hadnt driven at night in the rain for ages.
Everything was black, I was mentally screaming at myself to get out of the car but I couldn’t make myself move. I could hear Shauns voice coming from my phone ‘ash ash ASH’ I wanted to answer him with every muscle in my body but I couldn’t move my lips. That’s when everything went truly black.
Jumpnows pov
We had only just finished a tour but I think all of us could see it was what had been holding us all together. It was 3am and I couldn’t sleep, ims was dead to the world next to me, her blonde hair spread out across the pillow. She was leaving tomorrow if Belinda had her way, if we had ours she wasn’t going anywhere. Alot of the time people don’t see what they really have until it’s too late, well include me in that. I’d spent way to long not paying enough attention to her. Okay I confessed I loved ash, she still had feelings for Shaun. Neither of us could have what we truley wanted, but it was only now I realized she was what I truly wanted. Nobody really knew it but I was actually a cuddle person, I rolled over and wrapped my arms around ims as best I could and snuggled my face into her neck.
She stirred a little in her sleep and turned over so she was snuggled into me. We fell asleep entwined with each other, feet touching. ‘I love you Shaun’ she whispered in my ear and it was the last thing I heard before I fell into sleep. I was woken about 2 hours later, Shaun was standing over me looking deathly white. His eyes were wet like he hadn’t slept at all ‘what is it’ I mumbled shutting my eyes again ‘it’s ash. Shes in hospital. There’s been an accident’ he managed to say. My eyes shot open, I knew it wasn’t a good idea to let her leave
