Shauns pov
‘I’ll be honest with you mr diviney, she’s in a bad way’ these 12 words made my heart drop and my stomach curl, it was way after visiting hours but I just had to see her. I’d taken ash for granted, I was never really that popular until I was in a band, I never really had many girlfriends but now i realized how much I needed ash around. It took a while but I managed to sweet talk the nurse around and she led me down the hall to ICU. nothing really prepares you for seeing someone you love after an accident, weather its your family, your friend or even your dog. But nothing could ever prepare me for what I saw when the nurse drew back the curtains. Ash was hooked up to a machine with tubes everywhere, one sticking down her throat, her face was pale and she had a massive gash with stitches in it down the left side of her face. Apparently the impact shattered her right foot, and she lost a lot of blood. Despite my age and the fact that the nurse was right next to me I started crying, it was unimaginably awkward. She kind of just patted my arm and backed out of the room, leaving me practically alone. I let myself cry, really for the first time in weeks. I let go of All the hurt, all the misery and frustration, everything and focused on ash. Being a guy in a band I was always supposed to be setting a good example seeing as so many little girls were idolizing me but I was over it. Ash stayed silent. I guess this lack of sleep I’d had lately was sending me kind of crazy, I got it in to my mind that if I told ash howi was feeling she might be able to hear me and wake up. I fell asleep half way through muttering that I was sorry, that I just wanted to give in without her, that I would do anything if she would just wake up… I woke up all stiff with my hair looking like a bird was living in it and my face all stiff, it was brighter now and the nurse from last night was poking me and whispering I had to leave and come back after 9. I checked my phone, it was only 6 in the morning, 3 hours to go. Reluctantly I got up, kissing ash on her swollen lips and muttered not goodbye but see you later. Jumpnow was waiting out in the sitting area for people waiting for news from the ICU, I don’t think Id ever been happier to see him. He had the car, everyone else was asleep back at the hotel room they got out. The short drive to the hotel was silent, which was the good thing about having jumpnow for company, he didn’t push the conversation. We snuck in without waking people up because I didn’t want to talk at all. I just wanted to be alone but jumpnow didn’t trust me. We ended up toughing out the wait together, I couldn’t sleep and jumpnow just wouldn’t leave me alone. By 8:30 I was showered and changed but I didn’t bother with my hair, I just wanted to be back at the hospital. I took the car, jumpnow had fallen asleep finally so I left a note and left them all asleep. It was obvious I wasnt in the right mind state to drive but I did anyone, narrowly avoiding being booked for speeding. Back at the hospital there was no change, it was starting to look like she wasn’t going to wake up. Ever
