jumpnows pov
The worst thing about parties was definitely the hangover, I'd been slouched in front of the toilet for the past 20 minutes and didn't feel at all like moving. My head was absolutely pounding and my mouth tasted like absolute crap.
I was always the one stuck throwing their guts up while everyone else ate greasy breakfast and such. But today wasn't a normal day, for once I was glad to be stuck in here with the door bolted. Nothing can get to me here, except myself.
Last night, was something I wasn't at all keen to remember, it had been painful enough actually living it.
At the moment I was surviving on zero sleep, vodka and what little food I'd eaten last night. Surviving off this stuff would not last long if I kept throwing up at the rate I was going.
After what seemed like about half an hour, I was stable enough to get up and rinse my mouth and leave the bathroom. Everyone was awake and sitting around recovering by now, and as soon as Andy saw me he passed me a glass of fruit juice and three panadol. I downed them gratefully, rubbing my head and flicking on the kettle to make coffee.
It was all going okay until I was sitting in the corner and crunching through a bowl of fruit loops, and lurking tumblr when Imogen walked in. Her hair was a mess and she had makeup smudged all around her eyes. Even in rumpled clothes and looking like disaster she managed to look pretty enough to make me fall for her all over again. But then all the ran through my head was the fact she'd had sex with Shaun. Not me, even if she was drunk it should have been me not him. He was one of my closest friends and he'd gone and done this. He appeared about 5 minutes after Imogen entered the room looking disastrous, or as bad as I felt. Then he was gone, and I hadn't seen ash since last night. That couldn't be good.
The panadol had started to kick in by the time i'd finished my cereal, elevating some of the pain thumping around my skull. I abandoned the sad looks from Imogen and Bella, and the funny looks from everyone else and headed back to the bathroom. Luckily this time it wasn't to be sick, I just needed more time to think and the shower was definitely the best place for hardcore thinking.
I helped myself to some of Andy's "antihangover" shower gel, hoping it'd help to clear my head. This was all so confusing, so painful and the betrayal I felt was pretty intense. The warm water helped a bit, but a bang on the door and Andy's voice pulled me back to earth. I got dressed back into last nights clothes, gave my hair a half ass attempt at drying and left the room. Without ims and Shaun I wasn't really that close to anyone here, and this had just put a spotlight on the fact that I was totally alone right now.
I sat in the shade and tried to sleep but as soon as I was close my phone vibrated, the caller ID said "ash"
It didn't hit me until just now, that she was going through this too, Shaun had betrayed her as much as ims had betrayed me.
We arranged to meet at a cafe in 20 minutes, she sounded as upset as I felt but maybe, she could make this all okay.
Yeah, I still have feelings for her but she's more like one of my best friends then someone I'd consider a girlfriend.
I muttered some excuse and left, walking towards the cafe slowly, trying to think of something to say. But when I got there ash was already there, and when I saw her face I didn't need to think anymore. If my night had been hard, hers had been a lot harder.
"oh ash" was all I had to say for her eyes to mist over, and a hug was all it took for her to start crying. She hugged me so tight it feels like she was holding me together. When someone hugs you that tight, it feels safe. Safe enough to let yourself fall to pieces. That's what I did.
