chapter 54.

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Shaun’s POV

Change is a big thing, it has more control over everyone than we know. But when the way you see soemthing changes it usually changes for the good. Take now for example, I was sitting in the waiting room in a big Sydney hospital with a take away coffee and blinking away tiredness. Up until now i’d never really noticed how alone we really were, especially in a major city like this. I usually had someone with me, or i just didnt notice but now i could see despite all the people around me i was alone. Ash had gone into surgery a few minutes ago, I knew she was going to be alright but deep down i had my doubts. It was stupid that I had an 18 year old telling me over and over that she was going to be okay. I knew she was, but even though she was so much better than before she wasnt totally stable yet.

The accident just proved it. I wanted my gutair or cuddles at the least but I couldn’t have either at the moment. I wanted to take everything back, I wabted to rewind everything back to when it was perfect and my bond with Ash was rock solid. If i was honest with myself i missed Imogne more than i thought i would, she just added to my list of regrets. Sitting around thinking about this was not the best thing i could be doing that was for sure, even i could see that it wasn’t doing anyone any good. I decided to block out the world instead and get my ipod out, i didn’t want the bitterness and bad thoughts i had against myself right now.

My ipod was my old one i’d used until about the time i finished school and short stack took off becuase i hadn’t been the richest kid and couldn’t get a new one until then. Who knows how this ipod got into my pocket instead of the new one but it did bring back some memories. My music taste had changed since then, that was for sure, all the albums on here were all hardcore, angry bands. At the moment it happened to be just what i needed. The noise blocked out the things i didn’t want to think about, it reminded me that i could get through this and i’d been through worse. The nurse let me through about an hour after i stopped regretting things, ash looked half as bad as she did just after the initial crash. But her foot was all bandaged up and pinned back into place and she was smiling so that was the sweetest thing i’d seen all day.

She had to stay in for a few more days, but she was for sure on the way back to being my ash again and that was the main thing. Jumpnow had organised another tour already, so life was looking up on all sides. I couldn’t wait to go back to that feeling of being on top of the world, the feeling of having everything go my way. Which was pretty selfish on the surface but if you thought about it if things were going my way then they were going ash’s aswell. Which i wanted a whole lot more than i wanted things to go my way. I couldn’t lay up on the bed just yet so i had to settle for sitting on a chair next to the bad. i started daydreaming again, until a clap bought me back to earth.

‘what don’t i even get a kiss?’ ash joked and pouted at me until i started laughing and leaned in, it was sweet, but knowing she was okay made it a hundred times sweeter.

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