Jumpnows pov ‘cheer up bro’ Shaun tried to comfort me but sadly he wasn’t very good at it. He was the person I was closest too so unsurprisingly after ims left I was sitting in ash’s hospital room with him. She was unconscious again, the nurses knocked her out because she was so stressed. I felt like a little kid again, me and Shaun were sitting cross legged on the floor drinking coffee and sulking together. Being guys we didn’t really talk much, but I guess we both just needed to be close to someone who was hurting like we both were. I pulled out my iPod, at times like these only blink 182 can cheer me up. Listening to songs like all the small things bought back memory’s, they made me smile. ‘hey remember when we were immature little fucks with wannabe haircuts and dreams’ I laughed, sometimes I couldn’t believe who I used to be. Shaun burst out laughing ‘shit I looked like such a homo’ soon we were both laughing, but inside I was still so confused. I had to get ims back somehow but I knew that deep down I still loved ash, no matter how embarrassing it was to admit it to myself. Shaun got up to go to the bathroom, hopefully he would fix his hair aswell. I sat up on the chair next to ash’s bed, she looked dead with get pale skin and bruises. The thing was I felt like she still understood ‘ash the fuck am I going to do’ I muttered halfheartedly knowing she wasn’t conscious. She didn’t reply, she stayed motionless. Shaun came back in as I was trying to talk to her, I wished she would reply. He gave me a sort of smirk, like he knew what was going on. Except that wasn’t why he was grinning, he showed me what was in his back pocket. It was a needle. Well this was awkward wasn’t it… Shaun knew I lost one isn’t closest friends to drug overdose, you’d think he’d know that I would never touch that stuff. He saw my face and burst out laughing ‘it’s to bring her around you douche, the nurse gave it to me’ oh right. I forgot that was possible. I hate needles and blood and hospitals in general so when he stuck the needle into her wrist I got all dizzy and had to sit down before I fell down. She was awake in minutes, I forgot how much I missed her. Awkwardly. Watching Shaun kiss her made my heart crack all over again, he still cared even though she was in a hospital bed. I shouldn’t be sitting around I should be finding a way to get imogen back. Cos I love her, no matter what. Shaun seemed to pick up my unhappy vibes and broke of the kiss and left us alone. She took one look at me and I snapped. I don’t know what it was but piercing blue eyes always made me crack. ‘ash what the fuck am I going to do’ i asked her taking shauns seat and facing her. For the first time since ims left I had a chance to let down my walls, to let down the guards that I never let anyone past. Tough guys don’t cry. But right now, who’s saying I’m tough. I let the tears fall, ash grabbed my hand and looked me straight in the eyes and said the most sensible thing I’d ever heard her say. ‘if she means that much to you, don’t let her go. Get her back jumpnow’ her voice was still all crackly but it made so much sense. I hugged her and let Shaun back in, he was followed by a nurse. I left them to it and went outside, I had a plan to formulate.
