Reminiscing

Guilt

Candice POV~

"–Candie."

The endearing nickname alone struck me with so many thoughts all at once, that it felt quite overwhelming. I was unfaithful and a cheater.

Unfaithful b-tch!

My mind repeated that over and over again. How could I allow for such a thing to happen between Emerald and I? We didn't even know enough about each other to consider it appropriate. If there even was anything appropriate about this whole situation.

I made such a huge mess out of this. I knew this for a fact– yet I didn't regret it.

I needed a good slap across the face in order to get my head back on straight. Maybe Nancy would be up for it when she found out. I gulped at the thought. I had to tell Nancy and be honest with her. I owed her that much.

No.

I didn't owe Nancy anything. If someone was in debt between us, it would be her. For two years she has stomped and controlled my life. My submissive self allowed it to go that far, but not anymore. I wouldn't allow it. And I would get rid of whatever obstructed me from happiness. Whether it be Nancy or anything else.

All I knew was that I needed to get away from Emerald. Who was currently sleeping beside me. She seemed so content and the smile on her face was proof of that. I felt a tiny pang of guilt as I thought about abandoning her right now. She gave me one of the best orgasms I've had, yet I was minutes away from leaving her.

Why did it feel like I was treating this woman as a one night stand? It was a one time thing, right?

I groaned slightly at all the thoughts that were running around in my head.

I didn't know Emerald on a much deeper level, but I knew her well enough to know she has been hurt. Pretty badly at that. Maybe that was an explainable reason for all of my doubting and guiltiness that I felt just by thinking of leaving her.

What would her reaction be when she woke up and realized I was gone?

Her dark hair was sprawled out everywhere and her mouth was slightly opened. Her deep blue eyes were hidden beneath her eyelids. All in all– she was gorgeous. Even whilst sleeping. She was so beautiful that it was slightly intimidating. She was flawless and her body screamed out power.

Everything about her was frighteningly perfect. I knew she had flaws, like everyone else, but she did a good job in hiding them. Or maybe I was being too judgemental and she actually was this perfectly amazing. With no hidden catch or ulterior motive.

With one final sigh, I pushed myself off of Emerald's bed. I had to get away from this place as soon as possible. I was in no way prepared for any sort of conversation concerning tonight's event. I still had to attend to my business's dinner and I needed to make sure Nancy hadn't bailed.

So without making a single sound I collected my clothes off of the floor and began to hastily dress up. With one final glance towards Emerald, I turned around and left the room.

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