Reminiscing

Unspoken Truths Pt. II

Nancy POV~

I nervously ran my fingers through my hair, trying to calm myself down. I had no clue as to why I was feeling anxious all of a sudden.

Maybe it was the fact that I was about to share my life story with someone.

Willingly, may I add.

This was definitely something I never pictured myself doing.

I never thought I'd be inside my car, at the city's peak overlooking the city with someone much younger than me, seconds away from confessing things not even I had fully accepted yet.

But here I was.

And I wasn't going to back out now. I needed Valerie to trust me as much as I was trusting her. I had came to the sad realization that Valerie was the only trustworthy person I had left. Someone who would believe me over everything that has been happening. Someone who had caught glimpses of me at my worst and didn't run away. Someone who stayed–willingly.

That was something extremely important for me.

And I truly appreciated it.

"Why do I feel like there is going to be more to this conversation other than what happened last week?" Valerie tried to lighten the mood.

I choked on a laugh.

It was forced and strained. I wanted to slap myself for not being able to get it together.

"I'm sorry about that, Val. I wasn't thinking and I acted out on impulse." I grimaced when I took a glance at my knuckles that were full of scabs and deep, open cuts.

"So I noticed." She scoffed.

"Look I–"

"Yes Nancy. I'm here. You can continue on with your life story." She gave me a cheeky smile.

"How–"

She interrupted me yet again. "You keep playing with your hair when you're nervous. I couldn't help but notice that you are also tense. So I know this is something very important for you. And I wanted to say that I'm here."

She took my hand in hers and gave me a reassuring squeeze.

"I don't know where to begin." I sighed in exasperation.

I pulled my hand out of Valerie's grip and I ran it through my hair –again.

"There's many things Candice doesn't know about me." I finally confessed. "I made sure to keep them hidden from her. Not because I wanted to keep them from her– but I just thought it was best at that time. But as we continued on together I realized that it had gotten much more complicated than it would have been if I had openly told her sooner.

"I met Candice in high school. There was a huge age difference between us. That didn't stop us from continuing on dating though. She questioned me once–the reason as to why I was so old and still a senior. I told her that during that time I was facing some difficult problems which caused me to abandon school for a few years.

"I wasn't lying. I really did have some tough problems to deal with and so I left school because of it. My twin–Alex– even dropped out for my sake. He said he would be there for me and he did. I didn't want him to leave school because of me and simply waste that time just to support me. But it didn't work. That was Alex, always supporting me. Even when it meant abandoning our final year in high school midyear just to show me his full support.

"That was the first and only time Candice questioned my age. I always avoided speaking about the true reason as to why I left school in the first place."