Reminiscing

Moving Out

Candice POV~

"Are you sure you're not doing this out of spite?" Emerald asked me as I hastily packed what little belongings I had brought with me during my stay at Emerald's luxurious penthouse.

"No." I replied shortly.

I was still mad at her over what happened the other day at that restaurant. I couldn't believe Emerald had openly flirted with the waitress while I sat across from her at that table.

Never would I have imagined Emerald being capable of doing that. She seemed pretty genuine during the time I had gotten to know her. I had painted an image of her in my mind as someone loyal and honest. Completely capable of settling down and committing herself in a relationship. But now everything conveying that picture was becoming hazy and unfocused. My trust in her was being shaken and I had asked myself a couple of times if I was just overreacting.

No! I scolded myself.

I was fooled by Nancy once and I wouldn't let my naïve self to be fooled again.

If Emerald wanted my trust, she'd have to fight for it and prove herself worthy. I wouldn't fall for the same lies and promises of love that I had once fell for in the past. I now knew that if I let myself easily forgive Emerald for anything, it wouldn't take long for me to become a pushover and have Emerald trampling all over me like Nancy once did.

And I most definitely did not need to have a repeat of that!

I was done with all of this and I still wasn't sure of what I felt for Emerald.

She was absolutely great, there was no doubt about that.

I just wasn't sure of how deep or how strong my feelings for her were. Maybe my indifference towards Emerald and my feelings was due to the recent events in my life and the divorce that I wanted to talk about with Nancy. My brain was getting hoarded with so many thoughts that I couldn't bring myself to sit down and actually break down what it was that I felt for Emerald. This was possibly the reason of why I felt like our relationship was so superficial.

I liked her.

A whole lot, but I felt like there was something tugging me back from completely giving in towards her.

Maybe it was the fact that I still had plenty of things to fix with Nancy.

I still had to sit with her and talk about how we were going to carry out the divorce. I had to explain to her that we would have to cut all ties. I still had to tell my parents about what had been happening the past few weeks.

I rubbed my hands down my face.

Yeah, that's definitely what's keeping me from completely giving in to Emerald, I thought.

"Are you okay, hermosa?" Emerald's worried voice cut through my thoughts.

"What's hermosa?" I asked her curiously.

She had been calling me that for a couple of times now and I had no clue as to what it meant.

"Hermosa is Spanish for beautiful." She smiled goofily.

I felt my cheeks heating up and I quickly looked away from her. I wasn't ready to fully forgive her for that stunt she pulled off at the restaurant. I had to keep reminding myself of what she had done each time I found myself thinking how adorable she was.

"I feel really bad that you're moving out." Emerald pouted. "I'll miss seeing you each morning and during the night. I'll also miss your random midnight visits to my room"