Reminiscing

Don't Hold Back

Nancy's POV~

By the time we had got back, Jane had already went to bed. Leaving the house in darkness and eery silence.

When Candice and I stopped before my front door, I fumbled with my keys looking for the correct one.

Candice stood behind me and I could almost feel her unease and discomfort rolling off of her in waves. The darkness terrified her because of what had happened to her in highschool. The stillness and quiet that developed itself well within the night almost made her believe that she was being stalked again. So she was always on edge, believing that someone would suddenly jump out of nowhere and attack her.

I momentarily forgot my search for the right key and I turned around to face her.

Slowly, I reached and held her cold hand. "Hey...relax. I'm here, okay? I'll keep you safe just like I did in the past."

A smile sprouted from her soft lips and I forced myself to look away, before I did something that would surely scare Candice away.

I want to kiss her...

Candice's fingers tightened around my hand as a silent thank you.

"Nancy?" My name softly rolled out of her tongue.

Why was I getting turned on?

"Yeah?"

"If there's boundaries that you want to set before we step through that door, then you should establish them now." She began. "I promised you a day so that you could know what having a family feels like, so I'm going to do just that. I'll be a loving wife for you and I'll put all of our differences aside in order for you to actually enjoy this day. Do you understand what I'm trying to say?"

Was I imagining things or was Candice implying something?

"Yes, I understand."

I knew exactly what she meant.

She would pretend there was no divorce hanging over our heads, she'd pretend like she hadn't left me for a new woman and she would pretend like she hadn't put our dinner aside this very night.

Why am I being so rude towards her, I bitterly thought to myself.

If anything I should be thankful that she was willing to do this for me.

Not that I wasn't, because I was.

She didn't have to be here but she still made an effort to do as she had said.

The reason I was being harsh with my thoughts was because I was feeling jealous.

Guess I couldn't forget the fact that I was the one being put aside while Candice enjoyed an exquisite dinner with that billionaire woman.

Either way, I'd live in the moment.

Candice was here with me now and I'd enjoy every single second of it. Although there was a disturbingly persistent nagging in the back of my head, warning me that I would only get hurt by the time our day together ended.

I chose to ignore it.

Because the love of my life was here and she would pretend like everything was okay.

She would pretend there was no cheating from my behalf, she'd pretend like there were no secrets being kept and she'd pretend like I hadn't laid my hands on her.