"Blade.."
I bit my lips hard, halos nagdugo na iyon. I can't help but moan his name.
Ang lapit niya. Sobrang lapit na.
"I knew it when I first laid my eyes on you. I knew...I just knew." He whispered. I can feel his breath on my neck.
His voice rugged and weary. Like he finally let out something he's been trying to suppress.
"You don't how much I tried to fight it, Nia," he said. I felt his fingers gently stroke the strands of my hair. Lalo siyang napadikit. Ramdam na ramdam ko na ang bilis ng tibok ng puso niya.
"Your presence is enough to make me forget who I am."
Napapikit ako. Every little touch he makes sent shivers through my spine. To my whole being.
"Tuwing lumapit ako sayo, natatakot ako. I don't want to hurt you but--"
"You're not hurting me, Blade." Halos paos na bulong ko. Why is he doing this to me? Why is he making me want him more?
"I am, Nia. And soon I will hurt you further. Ayokong nasasaktan ka."
And all those words are making me feel weak. Ibang klase ang epekto niya sakin.
"No, please. Blade, hindi mo ako sinasaktan. Nililito mo ako," I said.
"You're making me feel things...I just can't..."
I can't describe it. Basta tumatalon ang puso ko kapag nandito siya sa tabi ko. Hinahanap ko naman kung wala. Hindi ko ring mapigilan ang utak kong isipin siya.
Hindi ko na maintindihan ang nangyayari. Kung paano at kung saan nagsimula. Parang ayaw ko na ring intindihin pa.
Niyakap ko siya papalapit. My arms crossed on his nape and I buried my head on his shoulder.
"Why are you doing this again? You pushed me away once." I asked him.
That night I gave in pero wala siyang ginawa. Pero iniwan niya lanv ako. Akala ko dahil wala talaga siyang nararamdaman tungkol sakin.
But this. After everything that he said.
"I've lost control. I should't...damn we shouldn't.." he sighed. He tried to pull back but I pulled him closer. I heard him sigh again.
"Nia."
"Let me. I want to feel you. Gusto kong maramdaman kung totoo ang sinasabi mo."
He wouldn't let me fall, he said. But if it feels as beautiful as this, I would rather stay and burn in hell with him forever.
"Nia, I'm sorry. We can't."
"Why?"
He uncrossed my arms and finally pulled back. Humakbang na siya paatras at tumalikod. Napahawak pa siya sa batok na parang hirap na hirap.
"Mali ito. Hindi dapat."
Again.
My heart shattered to a milion pieces. Durog na durog. It hurt so much I can't even cry.
Those words broke me. No. The truth broke me.
"You're a Soliel. A vampire princess."
That's true.
There's some boundaries we can't cross now.I'm still a vampire and he's a hunter. We are supposed to kill each other.
Naiintindihan ko na ang sinabi niya noong gabing yon. Kung bakit siya tumigil. Kung bakit siya umalis.
