A Glimpse of Forever

January 2012 - Start of Something New

Chapter 14

January 2012 - Start of Something New

Wow. This past week had been amazing. After our Truth or Dare adventure, Chris and I had spent a lot of time together. I mean, we hung out a couple times after New Year’s but this was different. I had to admit, I had formed a little crush on the guy. I wasn’t planning on blowing this out of proportion again and I certainly wasn’t planning on confronting him about it. I wanted him to like me and see me as more than just the girl who lives across the hall from Ryan.

Then two days ago, Chris asked me to hang out with him for the day. I, obviously, agreed and we went to the park down the street. He bought me a mocha coffee (my favourite) and we walked over to the swing set, something that I did at every park that I have ever been to. When I was younger, my two siblings and I would always fight over who got the swing at every park we went to. I was usually the one who lost. So now that it is just me, I made sure that I have a swing on the swing set.

I finished my coffee and I was about to start swinging when it started to rain. Yep, that sounds about right. Something always ends up getting in the way of my happiness. Chris was panicking like a girl, “Oh no. My hair is going to get wet”

The bloody wimp. I personally loved the rain. I didn’t want it to rain in this exact moment but I wasn’t going to have a cry about it. I sat on my swing and enjoyed the refreshment of the falling water.

“Why are you trying to find cover, Chris? It’s just the clouds tears….”

“The clouds what?”

Oh right, he wasn’t there when I was growing up, “Well, my family and I use to go on random adventures when my siblings and I were younger. One day we decided to go out but we got caught in a storm. My brother was scared, the thunder was loud and the rain was cold. I was trying to calm him down so I told him not to be frightened, that it was just the clouds having a bad day. Sometimes even the clouds need a good cry and a scream. And ever since, we have called the rain, ‘the clouds tears’”

He just looked at me, I was worried that he thought I was strange. He stopped my panic mode when he answered, “You are really amazing, you know that?”

Okay, so that happened. Oh, but he wasn’t finished.

“Mel, I’ve had so much fun spending time with you for these past couple of weeks. I can honestly say, that after getting to know you and seeing you like this, is simply perfect….”

Is this what I think it is? Was this seriously about to happen? Or was I just overthinking?

“I was wondering if you wanted to go out for dinner with me….”

Okay, so I wasn’t overthinking. This was seriously about to happen.

“…for a date. If you don’t have fun then I’ll stop asking but I just, I want to be able to say that I tried”

Thinking about it for no more than 5 seconds, I stood up, walked over to him and responded, “Sure. I would love to grab dinner” 

I took his hand and we walked around, in the rain, for hours. We never really ate dinner; it was more like snacked on various foods when we came across the store. It was nice and I did enjoy our time together. I was secretly hoping that he would ask me out again.

So, now we have been dating for a week, well, not officially dating. We haven’t told anyone so I guess we are just hanging out like normal people but we hold each other’s hand and he calls me ‘babe’ a lot. We had been discussing our ‘coming out’ speech. He wasn’t sure about the timing and by ‘he’ I mean me. I didn’t know when the right time was and I didn’t want to ruin a good thing. It wasn’t that I wanted to keep our newly found relationship a secret; I just didn’t think that it was something that everyone needed to know.

“Come on Mel. Now is a better time than any. Why not just tell everyone?”

“Because, what if now isn’t the right time? What if we tell everyone and something bad happens like Sophie’s dog dying? Than our relationship will forever be remembered by the day Sophie’s dog died”

“Babe, Sophie doesn’t have a dog….”

“That wasn’t the point”

“You shouldn’t be so scared to tell people. Seriously, I don’t think that telling people now is going to harm anyone. I don’t know anyone who owns a dog so…I think we are in the clear”

Out of nowhere, I heard Ryan’s voice from behind me, “In the clear for what?

I was completely cool, “None of your business Ryan. Oh.My.God!”

Okay, so I may have panicked a little.

“Wow, calm your farm there Melly-Jelly”

Chris looked at me as if to say, I’m going to do what you told me not to do and you can’t stop me. I couldn’t manage to do anything except shake my head in anguish. Yep, that’s my solution to solving things, just shake your head at them, that will surely stop them, you idiot!

“Well, Ryan. We were talking about something….”

Ryan’s face made me laugh. He had that, No duh look.

“….Ryan, I’m seeing Amelia”

“Chris, I can see Amelia too”

I had to contribute to the conversation. I didn’t want it to seem like I was trying to hide it, all though I was, “He didn’t mean that kind of seeing”

I could see the light bulb go off as Ryan finally connected the dots and realised what was going on, “Oh. That kind of seeing”

I don’t know why, I had no logical reason behind it but I suddenly felt terrible. It was strange, I couldn’t look Ryan in the eyes without wanting to cry and I didn’t understand why.

Chris had to leave, he had work so he left Ryan and me alone in my apartment.

“So…you and Chris”

This was a very awkward situation and it made me uncomfortable. Most situations made me uncomfortable but this one in particular sent me flying out of my comfort zone.

“Yes. Me and Chris”

“How long has that been going on? It couldn’t have been that long”

“Why is that?”

“Oh, no reason”

“And it’s only been a short amount of time but it’s been great!”

“Why are you getting mad?”

“I am not getting mad!” I was. He was making me mad with all his questions and his judgey face. I really do wish he would stop doing that thing with his eyes.

“Ooookkaaaay, sorry I asked”

“Was there a reason that you are here?” Oops. I didn’t mean to sound like a stuck-up cow.

“I was just stopping by, I’m going now”

“Okay, bye then”

I really needed to calm down. I splashed cold water on my face and got myself a glass of water. I’m still not fully aware of what had happened moments ago. I had to stop thinking about it. I need to not think about what people think and by people I mean Ryan.