Running Into Hamilton

It's my Fault-part 65

It's pure happiness, laying with my fiancee, eating oranges and watching TV.
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*maddie pov*

I get picked up by ant and Jazz, who both look kinda stressed from something. The ride home is pretty quiet, and I quickly head to my room. I have a decent amount of homework, so I start right away. I shuffle through the papers, worrying what's happening outside my door. The only thing I can use to get my focus off of them is listening to music and singing.

"Anthony, they need to be there! They're like family!" Jazz raises her voice, shocking me. "Jazz, that means my cousins can't come! Or we could drop something else, but there's nothing that we can go cheaper on anymore." Anthony says, nearly yelling, then starting to quiet at the end. It's all my fault. If I wasn't here, if they hadn't taken me in, they would have enough money for this. I sulk back in my bed, not doing anything, my mind blank. They continue going off, their volumes fluctuating as if they were characters on stage.

Before I realize what's happening, tears are pouring out of my eyes. I think I hear them settle down a few times, only to be met by the same irritated voices rising again. I stay in my room for a few hours, not wanting to eat, to sleep, to listen to music, to exist. Time seems to stand still, the once soft, loving and familiar voices now harsh, annoyed and angry. A few minutes later, I hear a door slam. I can't tell if it's the front door or a bedroom, but someone has closed a door. Then I hear light pacing, and Anthony cursing under his breath. Each word makes me flinch, then I hear another door close, more softly this time.

I rock back and forth on the bed for a while, shaking, my mind racing a hundred miles a minute. After I'm sure both of my parents aren't moving any time soon, I sneak into the kitchen and grab a small apple for dinner.

*jazz pov*

We had to get a pretty small venue for the wedding, so ant and I had to figure out who would be invited to the ceremony. We were thinking maybe having a very small ceremony, then using the theatre or a cheap hall for a reception, but in case that fell through, we were trying to cut people out. I knew my childhood best friends needed to come, they're like my sisters, but Anthony wants to invite his cousins. We're trying to figure it out, trying to fit more people into the budget. I start to get frustrated and out of nowhere shout.

This continues for a while, back and forth arguing. We have to go on for at least an hour until I can't handle it anymore. I grab my keys and walk out, not even grabbing a coat to fight the early December whether. It's freezing, so I run to my car and start the engine. I drive for a little while until I find myself outside pippas apartment. I quietly knock on the door, crossing my arms on the cold. She opens the door, looking at me, confused. "What happened?" She asks, guiding me inside. She throws me a sweatshirt, then I sit on the couch. She walks into the kitchen, starting the tea pot. "Anthony and I got into an argument about the wedding. I left, and I came here." I say, pulling my legs under me.

Pippa comes into the room with a cup of tea and one of hot chocolate. I gladly take the warm, chocolatey drink as we talk. She lets me spend the night there, since I don't want to go back home. I feel bad, leaving, arguing, everything that I did. I must have made Maddie so scared, I didn't even think of that before I left. I fall asleep with these thoughts going through my head.

*Anthony pov*

She left. Jazz left. I start cussing under my breath, I knew I messed up. I pace around, trying to figure out what to do. I go into my room, trying to calm down. I'm in the room for about 30 minutes, I hear a door open gently. I wonder who it is, so I quietly stand up and go to open the door. I look out, just in time to see Maddie run into her room. I stand in the living room for a moment, then quietly make my way to Maddies room. I slowly open the door and look to her bed, where she is curled under her black and white comforter, and I can hear her crying quietly. It breaks my heart, knowing that I caused this.

"Maddie?" I ask quietly, and hear her move, looking to me. "Yes, Anthony?" She asks, making my heart break even more. "I'm sorry." I say, walking to her bed. I engulf her in a hug. "No, I'm sorry ant. If I wasn't here, you guys would have money, you could invite everyone you wanted. You wouldn't have to make plans around my schedule, wouldn't have to worry about me." She says quietly, defeated and sad. "No. Don't be sorry, nothing here is your fault. It's no one's fault. We're already inviting an obscene amount of people, we're not poor or running short on money, we're not angry. We love you, you're wonderful, please don't think that any of this is your fault." I say, hugging her tighter.

She calms down slightly, and I reach for the remote, one arm still around her. I turn on the TV and watch nick at night for a while. I look over and see my daughter asleep on my shoulder and smile. I don't want to wake her up, so I slowly slide out from the bed and let her sleep, going off to my own room. I wish she didn't  think it's was all her fault. I love there so much.
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An hey thanks for putting up with my updates lately. Thank hamxilton for this one, it was her idea. Love you all, bye!