Running Into Hamilton

Somehow Sane-part 37

We run through the show and Riley helps me to Anthony's car. Before we leave the school, he wraps his arms around me and kisses me. Really kisses me. "I wish I could make you feel better." He says when he pulls away. "You just did." I say and head home.
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*Maddie pov*

I exit Anthony's car and he puts his arm around my shoulders. "You know we love you, right?" He says, kissing my forehead. "Of course, dad." I say, and we go into our apartment. I do my homework for a little over an hour, then just lay down and think. I'm an Aquarius, (now, I was born a Pisces, but i agree with Aquarius more and now that nasa changed the star signs I can officially call myself one.) So I never really trust anyone. I wish i could just immediately trust people, but I just can't. No one, not even Anthony or jazzy, know what goes through my mind. Riley and Anthony are the only ones that keep me sane, or safe.
*trigger warning*

I keep being engulfed in my own mind, and i don't even realize that i was scratching my nails across my arms and thighs. There what bright pink lines covering them, and Anthony knocked on the door. I panicked and pulled my sleeves down, using my blanket to cover my legs.
*trigger warning over*

"Hey, what do you want for dinner? Jazzy said she doesn't care." Anthony says, leaning on my door. "Oh, I'm not really hungry, so I don't really care." I say, looking down and crossing my arms around my stomach. He walks over and sits on the bed. "Please, love, eat. And why are you wearing a blanket? You're always hot." He says and pulls the blanket away. I try to rest my hands on my legs, but im not fast enough.

"Love, why? We love you, you're perfect. Please, you're beautiful." He says, leaning to me and wrapping his arms around me. I lean on him and cry into his chest. "I'm sorry Anthony." I say. I really do have a great family. I think back to Riley kissing me earlier. When i got home, I thought it wasn't true, but now I know it was.

"Ant?" I ask, looking up to my dad. "Ya, maddie?" He responds. "I like Italian." I say, and we both laugh. He gets up, then leans over and kisses my forehead. "I love you." He says, then I watch him walk out and order our food.

Half an hour later, im half way through eating a chicken limone, laughing with my parents, and snapchatting my boyfriend. Life truly is good. Or at least at this moment, before my mind goes back to the dark place it loves to torment me in.
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AN hey! I'm really sorry that my chapters have been super short lately. I'm kinda swamped with auditions, chorus, select choir, homework, and some pretty devastating family stuff. I'm starting to pre think and write earlier though, so it hopefully will get better. I'm so so so so so so sorry I feel so bad. Love you all, bye!