MORE THAN A MOUTHFUL

Chapter 12- Green Light

Na-mis ko kayo.
Pasensya kung natagalan.
Tiglamig kasi.
Masarap matulog.

HENRY'S POV

Does crying make me less of a man after we broke up?
Wala akong pakialam kong kabawasan man yun sa pagkalalaki.

Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin matanggap ang biglaan niyang pakikipagkalas sa akin.

Nobody likes 'goodbyes'. I know it's always important to acknowledge that all relationships are meaningful to a degree.

When we fall in love, we tend to give our all to our partner. So when they hurt or leave us, our body and soul dies. It's sad that this pain is unexplainable.

I keep on asking my self, is this some kind of her revenge?
Plinano ba niya ito para makaganti sa akin dahil sa ginawa kong pagtataksil sa kanya noon?
Kung totoo man ang hinala ko, I can say that she did it well.
Nagtagumpay siyang saktan ako.

After she left my room, I can feel the pain of my broken heart and yeah, it hurts to be alone and keep thinking about the good times we spent together.

Para akong baliw na nakatitig sa saradong pintuan. Umaasa na muling bubukas at papasok si Mei Ann. Sasabihin niya na biro lang ang lahat. That she's only testing how much I really love her.
Ngunit nakalipas ang dalawang oras, walang Mei na bumalik.

I wanted to speak to her again. But I also wanted her to know that I respected her.
Napagdesisyonan kong tawagan siya ulit.
She cancelled my call, and texted me to say that she didn't feel like talking to me dahil hindi na niya kakainin ang pagkaing isinuka na niya.

Her words hurt me terribly but I was too eager to make her change her mind so I called her again.

I told her I was sorry for everything kahit hindi ko matukoy kung ano ang nagawa kong kasalanan sa kanya.

I begged for another chance but she didn't want to listen to me.
She hung up.

I placed the phone down gently.
Naramdaman ko ang pamamanhid ng buo kong katawan.
I just can't believe that she shut me out of her life that easily.

I fell face first into my pillow.
I held my breath but I didn't die.

I woke up in the morning pretending that there's nothing really heartbreaking happened.

Hindi ko agad iminulat ang mga mata ko.

"It was only a dream."
I told my self.
Pero nagising ako sa mapait na katotohanan nang mapagtanto kong wala nga si Mei Ann na nakahiga sa tabi ko.

I feel so alone and with a meaningless life.
Without her, I don't know what real happiness is.

I cringed in pain as I started to remember our exchange of conversation before she walked out of the door, leaving me heartbroken.

Paano ko siya makakalimutan?
She's too greedy. Nagawa niyang sakupin ang lahat ng alaala ko.

The sènsation of her lìps against mine would haunt me for eternity.

She has a sense of humour I'll never find in anybody else. She's so funny, a dark and honest humour that will make me laugh until my stomach hurts.
Gumagaan ang bawat araw ko kapag kasama ko siya. Nakakahawa ang pagiging masayahin niya.
She love to laugh and I love making her laugh. I can't get my eyes off of her everytime she's laughing.

The sound of her laughter is like a soothing music to my ears.
She throws her head back and her hair brushes off her shoulders and her eyes light up so bright
It's indescribable! Kay Mei lang ako napapatunganga ng ganun kapag tumatawa siya.