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"spoken"
"Foreign Language"
'Thoughts'
#Place
Flashback / dreams
[Written]
~track of time~
(A/N)
{people from Tsuna's mindscape talking to Tsuna, Vice Versa}
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I feel sobber and it's hot. My body feels like it's being drowned into lava.
I can faintly hear those scattered memories calling for me. Wanting me to remember them all. Those memories...
Those hurtful memories I tried to forget...
some are actually great memories of me and my happy past. But what makes it worser than those memories ofthe death is the fact that it could never get repeated EVER...
Not when I've lost them...
Not when they're not here...
and for the worse... They died because of me...
They DIED because of ME...
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY
Why it has to be me?!
I don't want to be the child of propecy!
I just want to be a normal kid...
I don't want to have non-existent in my head!
I don't want to have this curse of unable to forget!
I just want to be normal!
Not a special boy who could control the whole d*** universe!
I just want to be normal...
Even if it was only for a day, I'll do anything for it...
To be happy once again...
could anyone grant my pitiful wish?
***
Normal POV
Tsuna is up at 2 A.M. the next day. Mizuki has moved him to his own room once the elder founds out on what happened to him. Tabolt himself already left long before Mizuki got there. He left a potion in Riku's care, knowing that the girl is the only one that matured enough to this matter.
and now, Tsuna is in the middle of staring the clear sky as he just finished preparing the breakfast. His mind wonders to the places he couldn't reach. But one thing for sure, he's scared...
He's scared of the mark on his body...
He's scared at the thought of him loosing himself again...
He's scared of dying...
All in all he's scared and couldn't focus on his doings. He even cooked only with his instinc remembering that he has broken his taste buds aswell.
He doesn't know, how long has he dazed off. all that he knew is that even within his mindscape, Henko and his other personalities were having quarrel about Henko's 'Reckless' action, like how they state it, when the blond was trying to save him. On the other hand, Henko who was ticked enough with the tainted one, thought that his action was better than their 'ever so smart *cough* slow' Reaction. Meantime, Tsuna and Shiyo tried to stopped them with the help from Natsu. In the the end, they stop bickering, not wanting to wake Tsuna who unknown to them, has already re-awaken and hear them all. silently blaming himself for being weak.
By now, everyone is sleeping. Yes, that includes, his other personalities and Henko.
That leaves Tsuna with his own personal thoughts sitting on the terrace all alone, with Natsu who silently staring at him with worry...
"Tsuna..." Couldn't take the gloomy silence any longer, Natsu called for him.
"..." No responds. Tsuna didn't even reacted to the fact that Natsu has materialized himself next to him using Tsuna's night flames that he control.
Getting even worried, he called again, "Master Tsuna... are you okay?" He asked softly as he reached for the other's hand who in return getting squeezed ever so slightly to tell him that he listens to him. To Natsu, that's enough.
after some minutes later, Tsuna let a soft sigh as he leaned his head to Natsu's shoulder, trying to relax himself to the faux source of heat.
Tired of thinking, he began to sing...
[Winter sleep- Olivia Lufkin]
It keeps coming back to me
I remember this pain
It spreads across my eyes
Everything is dull
Everyone's smiling, they're smiling
It pushes me far far away
I can't understand
Everything is blue
Can you hear me out there?
Will you hold me now? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me?
As Natsu listen to the song closely he caught the silent message and could faintly feel the sorrow that his wielder felt. he couldn't help but take Tsuna even closer as he burried his face on the other's fluffly hair. Trying his best to comfort the boy without breaking the moment.
I know when I let it in
It hides love from this moment
So I guard it close
I watch the move it makes
But it gets me, but it gets me
I wish I could understand how I
Could make it disappear, make it disappear
Anyone out there hear me now?
Will you hold me now? Hold me now, My frozen heart
Kiss my lips and maybe you can take to your world for now
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now? Hold me now, My frozen heart
Please make it all go away
Am I ever gonna feel myself again?
I hope I will
Will you hold me now? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm gazing from the distance and
I feel everything pass through me
I can't be alone right now
Will you hold me now? Hold me now, My frozen heart
I'm lost in a deep winter sleep
I can't seem to find my way out alone
Can you wake me?
by the end of the song, Tsuna snuggled to Natsu, seeing him like he's somekind of Father who he never had.
Natsu himself is whispering sweet nothings to the former's ear, telling him that everything will be just fine...
"-Don't worry, Master... I'll always protect you. and I promised you that by the end of the day, everything will be alright" He said with a heart warming smile that Tsuna missed for he closed his eyes yet still clinging to him like a child.
"...many people promised me that..." He replied after some moment of silent, "Yet... they lost their lives as the prize..."
Those dull eyes stared at Natsu's amber as he asked, "will you be like that too?" He said with a cracked and pained tone. Clearly, he doesn't like the idea of more lives got sacrified for his sake.
a light chuckle is what he gets in return, "maa~ daijobu. Afterall, I'm strong... and I think you just forget the fact that I don't have a real body. In a way, we're one. So, I couldn't have died, now could I?" Natsu said as he ruffled the other's hair, making it messy.
"well you better not..." Tsuna said serriously, sad expression hanging on his face. "I could actually lost my mind if I have to lost you too..." He said almost back to his teary state.
Just then he got snatched into a tight hug by Natsu as those tears finally slipped. "Don't worry... Everything will be just fine... I promised..."
Unknown to them just some feet behind them, a ravennete is watching to their interactions, and couldn't help but smiled, happy for them...
~TBC~
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