The Right Kind of Wrong

The Coming Out

Cut to our hotel room.

Nakahiga na kami ni Glaiza sa kama habang nanood ng Enchanted movie sa tv. Nakasandal ako sa headboard at nakaunan naman siya sa tiyan ko. Tahimik lang siyang nanonood habang ako, lumilipad ang isip ko sa kung ano ang dapat kong gawin after nang bakasyon na to. I cannot live away from her lalo na we are committed already with each other. Babalik na sila ng Maynila. LDR is not my thing. Maybe i should go back. Susunod ako kay Glaiza. She is my happiness now. Ayuko malayo ito sakin. But, how can i tell my family about my plan. For sure they will ask me why. Alam kasi nila na may trabaho naman naghihintay sakin dito sa Aklan kaya hindi puwede na trabaho ang gagawin kong excuse. Should i tell the truth? That i am in love with a woman? That i want to be with her? Man. I am so confused right now.

I looked at her and caressed her hair. She looked up to me. Those big beautiful eyes, always capture my heart. She smiled sweetly at me and my heart melted once more. This person, the only one that i love deeply, my happiness. Just looking at her, nabuo na ang desisyon ko, kaya ko panindigan ang pagmamahal ko dito. I will tell my family. Haharapin ko lahat na mangyayari. Ang importante makakasama ko siya.

"I wanna go back to Manila. What do you think?" Tanong ko sa kanya. Her face lit up at napaupo ito sa harap ko. She stared at me for a moment and nakuha naman niya ang gusto kong sabihin.

"Talaga??" Hindi makapaniwala niyang tanong. Tumango lang ako. She hugged me then.

"Dun na lang ako maghahanap ng hospital for work. I cannot afford to be away from you Gai. Hindi ko kaya."

"Me too Jel. I was hoping you could say that. And thank God dahil nakapagdesisyon ka na babalik." Masaya nitong turan.

"But, here's the thing, i need to tell my family about us. Wala kasi akong makitang rason para bumalik sa Maynila. You are my only reason baby." Lambing ko na sabi sa kanya while caressing her face. I can see hesitation in her eyes. I am expecting that she is hesitant about the coming out.

"Listen Gai. Mahal na mahal kita. Kaya kitang ipaglaban sa pamilya ko. Kahit papano kasi malalaman din nila ito. Kaya habang maaga pa, we should tell them. If you worry that you will lose me because of this decision, dont. Kasi hindi ako papayag na mawala ka sakin. I will do everything to be with you baby." I assured her. Hindi pa rin ito makasagot, maybe trying to understand the situation. She held my hand in her cheeks and kissed my palm.

"Okay Jel. I stand with you. Naintindihan ko. Maybe for now we cannot face my own family, but i know we can face yours. I wanna be with you too. I cannot imagine that you will be away from me. I love you too much baby." Puno nang pagmamahal na sambit niya sakin while caressing my face. That melted my heart. I have never felt this kind of happiness ever. I smiled at her. Looking at her lovely face.

I leaned to kiss her on the lips. I am now addicted to it. Butterflies are flying inside whenever our lips touch. It was an extraordinary feeling for me. Her lips were moving again against mine syncing perfectly. I felt goosebumps allover.

"I love you too, so much Gai. Hinding hindi na kita pakakawalan pa." As i murmured against her lips. She smiled while her eyes are still close.

"I wont let you go too Jel. Not this time. Not ever. I will face the Family Raz with my heads up." Sambit nito at nakatingin na sa mga mata ko.

"Okay. Suotin mo na rin ang armor ni Pirena. Hehe." Biro ko sa kanya. Natawa ito.

"Sira ka talaga Jel." Sabi nito at sinampal ng very light ang mukha ko.

The rest of the night ay pinag usapan namin kung ano ang gusto niyang gawin sa remaining 2 days nila sa bora. We cuddled some more and many kisses were stolen. Mag uumaga na kami natulog dahil sa kabaliwan namin. Ang kulit din naman kasi. Hating gabi ba naman eh naghahabolan pa sa kwarto. Tsk.