The Six Missing Parts

Blame Game

Dani's POV
The bell rings and obviously Lauren stays in her spot not having noticed it, or the rest of the lesson.

I don't know if I want to disturb her.

Yes I do.

I pull her arm causing her to pull it away turning away from me walking out of class.

Harsh.

I follow her quickly catching up as she stops at a random locker putting her head on it.

What is going through her brain?

Lauren's POV
Pull yourself together Lauren! I scream in my head wanting to stop all my whirling thoughts.

I turn around from the locker watching the hallways whirl past me like they are on fast forward and I'm stuck on pause.

Everyone is moving, talking, laughing, smiling, and making noise, that I cannot hear.

Stop it Lauren stop feeling bad for yourself!

I hit my head like it is a broken lawnmower just needing a kick hoping to wake up from this horrible nightmare and have it be early summer again.

Before our entire life changed.

Amy's POV
I mean I knew that's what Lauren said to Dani but the way Lisa said it made it worse.

When I read it I could pretend it was some sort of joke, a lie, picture Lauren's dry laugh at the end.

The way Lisa told it made it real, and dark. Having inferences of suicidal tendencies, reading between the lines. That was what I failed to do.

I look back at this morning thinking of the girls shocked expressions as I woke them up.

I flipped the light switch on knowing Lauren would not respond to yelling and not wanting to disturb my three other sleeping sisters.

I bit my lip praying that Lisa won't wake up her head faced her covers, luckily, and hoped Lauren would be silent.

Lisa's POV
I cross my arms over my chest being able to feel the anger radiating off of me.

How did I not wake up? I think to myself the cycle of self blame starting.

I always have had a tendency to place blame on something, someone, or I cannot resolve the problem.

Right now the victim just happens to be myself.

Why can't I blame Lauren, Dani, Amy, or Christina? It is their fault.

Katherine's POV
I see Lisa's thoughts devouring her again the her brown eyes changing to be somewhere else.

Amy is shifting uncomfortably in her spot, her blue eyes wider than usual.

"So..." I start not knowing how to break this silence. Maybe it is made to be silent and think about all we've done.

Or maybe it is what we haven't done.

We haven't actually asked them what was wrong.

We haven't asked them how they feel.

We haven't tried to comfort them, besides Lisa, just tried to fix them.

Maybe they don't need fixing, maybe they need saving.

Christina's POV
It has been an awkward silence for five minutes and the only thing keeping me sane is hearing three separate breathing patterns.

Lisa's tight stressed one.

Katherine's deep calming one.

And lastly Amy's steady but sometimes hitched one.

"Are we going to address the problem?" I ask breaking the silence.

As I don't get an answer I clear my throat.

"But what is the problem?" I feel myself furrow my eyebrow at Amy's words.

Clearly the two girls that aren't here.

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