I need this... I need YOU! (lapidot Human AU)

Hiding Part 2

Peri POV

FUCK. I'm late. By about 15 minutes. I had spent so much time in the bathroom trying to make it look like I hadn't been crying.

By the time I got there... ugh.

I threw on a agency uniform, and pulled on a dark colored jacket. I paused at my motorcycle.

I wouldn't be able to hold it together if her arms were around me. I breathed in. Okay... I'll just... take my car. I had to walk back up to grab those keys them hurried back down to the fittingly dull colored car.

On the way there. I thought of anything. Mostly whatever songs came on the radio.

One song came... I instantly turned the station. It was lapis's faverite. I breathed deeply.

I forced my self to think of something other than her. I couldn't start crying again. I couldn't be weak. I forced my face into that of a dull person, and stopped the car.

I was there. Lapis had a very nice house, though quite suburban. Modern. I kept my breathing slow. I got out it felt like hours before I finally reached the door and knocked. Even though it was probably only a few seconds.

I heard steps, then a pause, then the door opened.

She was smiling. It soon faded. Shit. Did I look like I had been crying? No... she would've said sometthing...

"Sorry I'm late."

I turned. I closed my eyes as i started walking back to the car. I got to the front of it, and realized she hadn't followed. I turned. She was still standing on her front step, but now she had raised her eyebrow in question,her face showing concern.

I frowned. "What? Is something wrong?"

She stuttered her words. "No... I uh... sorry it's just, you look... uh... different. What happened to your... bike?"

I took a deep breath, though it came out as more of a sigh "I have a car too. Figured it would be easier. C'mon, get in."

I completely ignored her. I was hurting her and I knew it. This is what I should've done from the beginning. Ignored her.

I flipped on the radio to ease tension... but a song came on and reminded me a little too well of our situation.

...Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you

If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit...

I quickly flipped it again. Fuck. God... why? Why did I have to have these thoughts, what was happening? Everything reminded me of her in some way. And with all the pressure of the case I felt like exploding.

I couldn't drive like this. I could feel her looking at me as i pulled into and random parking lot.

I needed air.

[A/N.       feels. Just feels.

I think I might post a 2nd chapter today, later on, because I feel like this one is really short. I apologize for that and there will be another short one soon.

But there is also a long update I finished late last night so maybe that will balance it out.

Love you guys]