I need this... I need YOU! (lapidot Human AU)

Spare Me

Peri POV

I stood frozen for a second, then slowly made my way up the stairs. I maneged to find the bathroom and went inside.

I broke down the second I closed the door. Not even in the normal way... I just shut down. She liked me back. She was willing to try...

But was I?

I curled up into a ball in front of the door. That was the question I couldn't answer. I liked her, sure. But was I actually wanting a relationship?

I sighed. "Just... clean up." I whispered to myself. I turned on the shower and let the warm water soothe me a bit. I stepped out and dryed my hair, which of course made it fluff. I growled in annoyance, but sighed.

I realized I didn't have any spare clothes. I put on my butten up and my panties. Hopefully lapis will have something?

"Lapis?"

"Yeah?"

"Uhh... do you have any... any clothes I can borrow? Maybe just like... a shirt and shorts?" I heard a clanging noise, then lapis peeked out of the kitchen.

"Yeah. Just Give me a bit, I'm almost done." She closed her eyes, smiling big, then disappeared back into the kitchen. After about 5-8 minutes, i heard footsteps coming up.

Lapis appeared, smiling a bit. "Follow me."

I followed her through the hallway, till we reached a light blue door. She opened it, but I didn't go in. I stood in the doorway. This must be her room...

The bed was sideways against the farthest wall, and a tv stood in front of it. There were many posters, mostly inspirational quotes, and the walls were the same light blue as the door.

Lapis was digging through a cabinet as i contenue to look around.

But I noticed she had another thing on her wall. A flag. A pride flag. It was hanging above the tv, so I could barely see it, but it was a pride flag.

So she is gay? No duh, she said she liked me... suddenly a shirt was thrown at me. I jumped, grabbing it before it could hit me. Lapis giggled. "Nice reflexes." I blushed.

She stood up, closing the dresser, and handed me some shorts. "I'll be down in the kitchen. You like macaroni?" I nodded.

She smiled and patted my shoulder. "Great!" She walked back and down the stairs, once again out of my sight.

I went back to the bathroom and changed. The clothes fit okay, but the shirt was a little big. I shrugged to myself and headed down the stairs and into the kitchen.

Lapis was stirring what I assumed was the macaroni, and I sat at the table. There was silence, but it felt no longer awkward or tense.

Lapis was even smiling. I felt my heart beat faster at the sight. Why was I like this?

After another maybe 10 minutes of my mini heart attack, lapis turned around. She walked over and set a small bowl which contained macaroni and beef. It looked amazing.

"I'm not a professional cook, but I say I know more than the average collage student." She winked, and I huffed in laughter.

While eating, I could tell... we were glancing at eachother. I didn't know why she was, but I did it in hopes of understanding.

But I guess this isn't how to do it.

"So... have you... uh.. never... dated? Not that it's wrong... just the way you acted..." Lapis stumbled over her words and I couldn't help but grin.

"No. Never really... felt enough towards someone..." I paused, looking up. Our eyes met and I immediately blushed.

"Its diffrent... with you I mean. I actually kindof WANT to hate you. But no matter how hard I try you get under my skin." I sighed, ruffling my hair. "And for the past few weeks, especially after that night when Casper beat me up, I can't sleep."

I looked up again, she was staring at me, her face would look blank, but her eyes were paying full attention. She wanted to hear every word. She wanted to understand.

I huffed again, putting my arms on the table and resting one on my forehead. "You confuse me. Or maybe I confuse myself because of you? You run in my mind and I can't stop." I closed my eyes.

"I can't do it anymore. I'm tired... and not just physicly. I'm TIRED. Tired of running away from it." I hadn't realized she had stood, and was now at my shoulder.

I looked back up at her again. "So yes, I expected you to reject me. I expected... no, i half wanted you to." I couldn't believe this was all spilling out of me. But for some reason it didn't seem like rambling.

"Its okay." I looked back up from my thoughts. Her soft smile making me feel warm. "I can understand. It's scary... relationships are scary if you don't know what you're doing. But..." She sighed, kneeling, and turning me to face her.

"If I ever make you feel uncomfortable, don't hesitate to let me know. I don't want you to hide things, and I won't be mad." She pulled me into a hug, d iffrent from the one on the couch. It was gentler, and I felt like just melting into her.

"Okay, lapis."

[ A/N  alrighty, finally finished this chapter.

I notified all my followers, but if you guys don't follow me, I have changed my publishing schedule. I will be posting this once a week, but I will be posting

SOMETHING, EVERYDAY.

mondays- this story

Tuesday- random funny shit/lapidot trashcan

Wednesday- Beutiful Stranger

Thursday- random funny shit/ lapidot trashcan

Friday- So Many Reasons To Stop.

Weekends I will not be posting. I hope you guys aren't mad at me, but I don't think I can keep up with one chapter a day.

I'm impressed I did it for so long XD

Also, I have a few ideas for other story's (not lapidot) that I'm gonna play around with, so look for that.

(I probably won't start posting that because I have four story's technicly going already lol)

Anyway, I really appreciate the support I've been getting, and I absolutely love see the wattpad notification symbol.

It brings me life.

THaNk you fellow sinners.

Have a good start to your year ^-^]