Love me, again

10

Selena

Laying in bed, I just knew the girls hadn't come home yet. I repeatedly told myself they will come home and there will be nothing to worry about.

As I closed my eyes and finally started to fall asleep my phone started ringing. I shot up and checked the time, midnight. I stared at the caller ID and it was Jeremy ringing. Oh god no.

Answering the call I choked on my words, ''Jeremy, is everything okay?'' I just wanted him to tell me everything was fine and the girls decided to stay at theirs. ''Selena I am so sorry to be ringing you at this hour but somethings happened to the girls.. something terrible.'' When he said that I froze and felt like I couldn't breathe. ''What's happened to my babies?'' I choked.

''The girls have been in a crash, they are all trapped in the car.''

As he said this I just wanted the earth to open up and swallow me, I felt Justin stir beside me and he turned on the bedside lamp. ''Selena are you okay?''

I didn't answer him, I mean how could I be okay after the news I just heard? I just feel like I failed as a mother.

''Selena.'' He spoke louder. ''It's the girls, they've...'' I choked. ''They've been in an car accident Justin, my babies..'' I choked as tears fell down my cheeks.

Justin hugged me from behind as I roared and cried. ''I just want to see my babies.'' I cried before jumping out of his arms and down the hall down then down the stairs. ''Selena wait! You can't drive in your state or I'll have all four of my girls in A&E!!'' Justin yelled running after me. ''Dad whats going on?'' Josh appeared on the stairs. ''Josh I need to you take Jayden to your Grandma Pattie's. You're sisters have been in a accident but I don't know anything else.'' Justin panicked grabbing his keys as I pulled on a long coat.

I ran out to the car in the rain jumping in the passenger seat not giving a shit about my appearance, my babies was more important. Justin jumped into the drivers seat and sped down the street. ''What the hell where they doing anyways?" Justin scolded and I gave him an angry look. "How am I supposed to know?"

He looked angry and I could tell the way his eyes where focus on the road, his face was easy to read. My phone beeped and Jeremy text me the location. "They were at Andrews park." I sighed leaning back into the seat. "Sneaking out to meet with boys I bet." He spit in anger.

"They said they were just going for food and bringing Jazmyn home." I snapped, Justin had really bad anger issues and I always opted to get him counseling but he always said refused.

"I feel like I'm living a nightmare all over again." Justin sighed. "Can we please just get to the kids? I don't want to be reminded of my own past." I stared out the window at the buildings that passed, hoping soon we wold arrive at the park. Please god my babies will be okay please keep them safe.

After ten more minutes of agonizing silence we finally arrived at the scene and my heart stopped when I seen how mangled Jordyn's car had been. When the car came to a stop my belt was quickly off my body and my feet took me running towards the seen. "NO not my babies!!" I screamed. "Selena!" Justin yelled after me as I ran watching the car being cut open to free my daughters. I could see Jade in the drivers seat her head against the wheel  blood dripping down the side of her head. I climbed under the police tape and began to run towards the car but Justin wrapped his arms around me and I screamed crying. "No! Justin let me go!" I cried hitting his arms hoping he would let me go. I cried even more but not a word came out. "Not my babies." I cried into Justin chest as he kissed my head. "This wasn't suppose to happen." I shook my head furiously as I just watched my babies being cut from the car. Sophia was also bleeding from the head but also from the chest and I couldn't even see Jessica. "Where's Jessica?" I panicked clawing at Justin's hands. "Where's my baby!" My screamed at Justin who just shook his head at the scene.

I frantically searched when I saw an ambulance and Jessica laying on a stretcher next to it. "Jess." I whispered. "Justin let me go." I whispered, when he looked in the direction he could see Jessica too and his arms let go of me so I made a run for the ambulance. "Jessica!" I cried when I seen she was in a neck brace but awake thank god. "Mom." She cried. "I'm here baby I'm here." I kissed her face and put my head on her.

"Mom I'm scared." She cried. "Baby there is nothing to be scared off. Your safe but you need to tell me what happened baby and I want the truth." I stroked her beautiful face. "While the girls went for food they went to grandads after and while they were there I was out with a boy, I'm so sorry mom I never meant for this to happen." She cried but I was quick to wipe her tears. "Hey I'm not angry at you but you need to be more honest with me in the future okay?"

She nodded and I just kissed her head. "When they came to pick me up Jade was driving and when she thought the road was clear a car came out of nowhere and smashed us. Mom please don't let them die because I know it'll be my fault."

"Hey now that's not true. They will be fine baby they will be just fine, I love you." I held her hand before the ambulance woman came to check Jess over, when I left the ambulance I could see Jade and Sophia on two stretchers.

I looked for Justin who was over talking to Jeremy, Chelsey and Jazmyn. I ran over to Jade and Sophia who was still passed out. "Oh my babies I'm here I love you both so much." I stroked both their faces before they were wheeled into the ambulances. I walked over to Justin who just wrapped his arms around me, I could tell he was trying to be strong for the girls and me but I knew once nobody was around he would break.

"I'm going to ride with Jess." I announced. "Yeah I'll take Jade and dad said he will go with Sophia." I nodded. "Sel I'll come with you." Jazmyn said and I nodded. She linked me as we walked over to the ambulance Jess was in. "Hey look who wanted to see you." I said to Jess who smiled when she seen Jazmyn. "How are the girls?" She chokes. "They are stable but we know nothing more."

"Mom?"

I hummed at her and she gave me a small smile. "I love you." She cried. "I love you too baby." I cried holding her hand.