Love me, again

21

Jessica

Stepping into the house laughing with Sophia and Jayden, I looked into the kitchen to see my mom and Jade hugging. My moms eyes turned to me and she let go of Jade. "Guys, I need to speak to you." She rubbed her hands along her skirt like she always did when she was nervous, but why?

I nodded and we walked into the living room, I took a seat in the love seat, Sophia next to my mom and Jayden on the other side of her. "There is news I need to tell to you guys."

"Oh no your not pregnant also?" The words flew out before I could stop them, her eyes went wide and she shook her head. "What is it Ma?" Jayden spoke brushing his hair out of his eyes.

"Your father and I are splitting up."

My world stopped then and there when the words came out of her mouth, it was as if time had stopped. "What why?" I spat, Sophia and Jayden sat there unsure of what to do. "Your father has been having an affair, for a really long time now." Her head fell and I knew she was fighting back the tears. He done this, he broke my mom and she was broken beyond repair. "With who?" Sophia choked out, her eyes darting from me to my mom.

"Hailey, your biological aunt." My mom spoke slow looking at Harlow, my eyes went wide and I looked at Sophia. "W-what?" Sophia choked, then it dawned on me. Hailey was my uncles Jason's ex girlfriend.

"I'm sorry." My mom apologized to Sophia, she had no reason to apologize because this was my father's doing. "I knew she was always a whore anyways." Sophia spoke coldly about Hailey. "I better go cook the dinner for when he gets in." My mom said giving us a sad smile before standing to her feet and leaving. "I hate him." Jayden spat before leaving also. Sophia and I just stared at each other and I stood to my feet.

As I made my way out of the living room the front door opened and my dad stepped in, looking me dead in the eye. "Jess.." He quietly spoke my nickname, it made me cringe.

"You disgust me." I spat before walking off towards the stairs and running up to my room where I cried and cried until I couldn't cry no more.

"Jess?" I heard his voice, his disgusting voice. "No! Go away! I fucking hate you!"

"Jessica Lynn Bieber do not speak to me like that!" He spat opening the door.

"What do you want! Why aren't you with Hailey fucking her brains out?" I sat up yelling, my energy was just completely gone. He stood there shocked but composed himself quickly.

"Because this is my home Jessica and I deserve to be here." I stepped to my feet making my way towards him.

"No you don't! You're a cheating disgusting bastard! You're not wanted here! Not by mom and not by your kids!" I pushed his chest and he left me. "Justin, just leave her to calm down." I turned my head to see my mom standing in the doorway, her eyes glassy but she kept her stern look, a few seconds past as she stared at him before he walked slowly past her.

"Your dinner is on the table." She spoke, shaking as if she was ready to crumble. She's held it together for years but I could finally see how much damage was really done. "Mom are you okay?" I quietly asked, we were both upset and she stood there with her hand to her face as she let the tears slip.

"I've held it together for so long I shouldn't be letting it break now.."

"Mom you can stop holding it together, it's done and over with now." I wrapped my hands around be her tiny frame and she collapsed in my arms. "Mom you can't let him do this to you, be strong for yourself you don't need him." I soothed rubbing her back, she nodded into my chest. "I can't show weakness." I knew she would fake a smile but she tried a little too hard. "Yes you can! Relax, everything's going to be fine." I tried my best to reassure her.

"What if I lose you guys? I can't deal with that kind of torture."

"You are not going to lose any of us, we are here for you and you only. We don't give damn about him or her." I spat disgust about my father who had done the dirt on my mom. Seeing her so broken from him made me want to stay away from love all together, I hated seeing my mom cry, even if it was over my own dad.

"Mom!!" Jade yelled from downstairs and my mom fixed her hair. "I'll be okay. I love you." She spoke low before kissing me on the cheek and making her way down the hall.

I waited a few minutes before following her, when I looked down the stairs I seen my gran. "Oh my baby what's he done this time?" My gran held both hands up to her face when she seen how distraught my mom looked. "He went back to her.." My mom collapsed into my grandmothers arms.

"Your father has been right all these years, he warned you of that foolish man!" My gran had anger in her eyes, I never really seen her angry until now. "I've only seen it in recent years though.. I thought he loved me mom."

"Is he here?" My gran held her hands out and scanned the room. "He's in the dining room eating his dinner." Jade faintly smiled and my gran was livid. "I told you to get rid all those years ago and you never listened." My gran said strutting into the kitchen pouring herself and my mother glasses of wine. "Yes mom you and dad were right now can you just drop it?"

My gran rolled her eyes st my mom and strutted past her into the dining room where she confronted my dad who sat in his usual seat, head of the table.

We all followed and I stood behind my mom who just watched. "Do you have no respect for your family whatsoever?" My gran spat and my dads eyes flickered between my gran and my mom. "You told her already?"

"I did, actually." Jade announced and he had anger in his eyes but they softened when they landed on her with her bulging stomach.

"How much less of a man are you now? Destroying the Bieber name for good!" My gran argued and I laughed at how good she could still give the abuse. "Oh I'm sorry your daughter doesn't satisfy me enough I had to opt for a younger model." He spat his dinner everywhere before his face was turned to the right, a smacking from my grandmother.

"You disgust me." She spat before walking out with everybody following. "Where's Sophia?" My mom asked.

"She went for a walk to clear her head. Said she would be back soon." Jade spoke low picking at her nails. Gran raised her brow and poured herself a glass of wine, not speaking a word.

It was awkward for a few minute before gran broke it saying she had to go get food for my grandad. "Sel honey I love you so much but I forbid you to get back with that man. Look after yourself and those kids they need their mother." I listened too my gran give my mom a pep talk at the door. "Bye girls!" My gran called and we waved smiling watching her strut out the door. My mom smiled waving then closed the door to roll her eyes and sigh. "I'm going to do some paper work, call me if you need me for anything." My mom smiled then disappeared down the hall, I dropped my shoulders relaxing then a little. "That was intense."

"Yeah and the next few months is going to be even more intense." Jade sighed propping her elbows on the island counter resting her head in her hands. "You alright?" I questioned opening the fridge and grabbing a water chugging it in one. "Yeah just exhausted, It's been a long day so I'm going to have a nap."

I nodded and watched her step down off the stool and waddle out of the kitchen, it was a little funny as she looked like a penguin. I let out a little chuckle but was quickly stopped by Jade. "Fuck off." She sarcastically yelled and I laughed harder, bending over and holding my stomach. "I hate you." She said again but her voice was distant.

I stood straight again and pulled my phone from my back pocket and going over the messages from Ryan, I've been ignoring him all day as my dads news sickened my stomach.

A/N

I am loving the video above, it really describe how I am making Selena feel and her POV of how Justin has treated her.

There will be a lot more of these videos and I don't mean to be depressing but like, I need a good cry