Love me, again

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Selena

Putting in my diamond earrings, I sprayed a little perfume on my neck, wrists, and all over my outfit before I picked up my bag and made my way down the hall. The house was quiet enough but not too quiet as everyone was waiting for me in the living room.

Gliding down the stairs I made my way into the living room greeted by my large family who turned to me. "Wow." Jess said and I smiled. "Damn mom you look amazing." Jayden said as he smiled. "Thank you baby." I squished his cheeks before Justin strutted over to me in his suit and I smiled.

"You look like a million dollars." He smiled bending down and planting a kiss on my face. "Ok gross." Jade said.

"You look stunning, mom." Sophia said and I almost teared up at her name for me. "Thank you." I hugged her tightly.

"Okay lets go." Justin said and I smiled as everyone rushed out. I walked over to Jade who bounced Jason in her arms. "Oh he looks so adorable." I said smiling down at him. "He doesn't know it yet but he is so lucky to have you as his mom." I said smiling at her and she smiled tearing up. "Okay none of that tonight please." I laughed as she placed Jason down in his car seat before Kane picked him up and I followed behind the two of them. Getting into Justin's car I checked Jayden Sophia and Jessica had seatbelts on before giving the green light to drive. "Did you book the reservation?" I asked Justin and he nodded smiling over at me.

"I love you." He mouthed so the kids couldn't get all grossed out. "I love you too." I mouthed back smiling, Justin's hand slipped into mine and I looked back at my three kids who had already taken out there phones and was too busy to notice anything.

"I'm happy we get to do things like this." Justin said and I smiled. "Yeah." I agreed.

"Mom what restaurant are we going too?"

"Gordon Ramsay's, he has the best food." I said and all I got back was a silent reply. "Josh texted saying he couldn't make it, he and Madison are actually out of town. He is surprising her with a dinner date before the baby arrives."

"He is so precious, too bad he was such a little brat when he was younger." I said laughing and Justin joined in.

"Yeah, now look what a great man he's turning out to be."

I agreed, our son turned out better than what Justin and I expected. "Our kids have an amazing mother." Justin said and I looked at him confused. "Yeah you let them get away with everything but you are the best mom they could ever have." He continued.

"I didn't do it alone." I smiled and he smiled back at me. I was truly blessed in life with my amazing family, I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for them.

Pulling up outside the restaurant I wasn't surprised by the large crowd of paparazzi. "Wish I was normal for once." I whispered as I opened the door and made my way behind my kids into the restaurant. "What is with these people." Jayden said as we reached the reception part.

"Mr and Mrs. Bieber. Welcome to Logan's Wings, please follow me to your table." The waitress smiled at us with her perfect white smile.

Smiling back at her Justin walked in front of me, I allowed the kids to walk in front of me also as I waited at the front for Jade and Kane.

As I watched them walk together, Kane walking with Jason's stroller and Jade trying to hid her face from the paparazzi.

"There is no point baby they already know who you are." I said as she was close enough to me.

"I just want privacy as a new mom." She rolled her eyes and I shut my mouth, anything I was going to say would just make her attitude worse.

"Stop taking it out on your mom she's not the villain here." Kane said as I walked behind them an she glared up at him.

"Well look who finally arrives." Justin said as we reached the table, taking my seat next to Justin I smiled at Sophia who was quiet sitting next to Jess.

"You alright babes?" I said to her and she smiled nodding. "I forget how lucky I got with you taking me in, I need to not fuck that up." She smiled and I put my hand on top of hers. "It's okay." I smiled at her and she went back talking to Jess about this new app called TikTok.

"How is the little man doing Jade?" I asked scanning the menu and looking up at her. "Finally he's sleeping." She nodded rocking the stroller, she looked genuinely tired and I knew how she felt.

"Motherhood is amazing, you'll realize that soon." I raised my eyebrows as she nodded.

"Your dad and I used to always go on dates when you guys where still in strollers, I'd have Jace and Jess running after each other while you cried in the stroller. Try look after three kids in public instead of just the one." I advised and she smiled at me. "Yeah I still adjusting to actually having him here with us instead of in my stomach."

"Hi guys, is everybody ready to order?"  The Waitress asked and I looked around the table as everybody was giving what they wanted to eat. "Can I get steak, medium to well done please?" Justin asked and I smiled, he always got the same food everywhere we went.

"And for you ma'am?" She asked and I scanned over the menu.

"Yeah could I just get the Pasta with Lamb Ragù with a glass of the sweetest white wine you have please." I smiled and she nodded writing it down before taking the menus.

"Pasta?" Justin questioned and I smiled. "Trying something new I guess." I placed my napkin on my lap.

As I looked around at my perfect family Jason started to cry in his stroller, Jade was almost on the verge of crying picking him up and I shook my head putting both my hands over the table for her to pass him to me. "I can calm him down."

"Mom please I need to do this."

"Give me him you need a break." I said and she nodded placing him in my hands. Holding him close to my chest I smiled down at his little face , his big brown eyes starting up at me with his pacifier in his mouth. "You are giving your mommy such a hard time, why is that?" I smiled and he gave me a little smile. "Bottle." I said to Jade who was shaking the bottle and passed it to me.

"There's different ways a baby likes to be rocked to sleep while feeding, let's see if he likes this one." I said placing the bottle in his mouth as I rocked up lightly up and down. Singing lullabies softly to him within minutes he was snoring away sucking in his bottle.

"You have to have patience Jade, it's not the easiest thing to find ways to put him to sleep but he seems to like this one." I said as I continued to rock him.

"Motherhood will teach you patience, love you didn't know you had and how to multi-task." I smiled as our food was placed in front of us. "I'll put him back in the stroller while we eat."

Shaking my head. "No no, I can handle him and eat at the same time. Watch and learn." I smiled as I rocked him picking up my fork with my right hand and picking up my pasta and eating it. "See? Yes it's easier said than done but you'll learn." I smiled.

"Where would we be without you Mrs. B?" Kane asked and I shrugged.