Love me, again

30

Selena

Sitting in my bedroom doing my makeup at my white polished desk, I heard a soft knock on the door. "Come in." I yelled not turning around to see who it was. "Hey mom, what you up to?" I heard Jess' voice and I smiled spinning myself around to face her as she was closing the door behind her. "Finishing off my make up, what's going on?" I asked watching her walking over and flopping onto her stomach on the bed. "Nothing really I just came to talk."

She looked upset and confused, her facial expressions was very easy to read. "Tell me." I raised a brow and she sighed rolling into her back staring up at the ceiling with her arms stretched out. "I broke up with Ryan."

"You're kidding me, what happened?"

She shook her head confirming that it was true, I furrowed my brows trying to piece together why she would even end it when all they did was spend time together. "I'm not attracted to him, physically or mentally."

"Have you two been arguing or something?" I titled my head to the side watching her for an answer, a few moments passed and she shook her head. "There's a secret I've been hiding from everybody and I can't hold it in any more."

"Well then, tell your mother because I am all ears my sweet darling."

She sighed sitting up, her back facing me. She sat on the edge of the bed her hands holding up tiny frame up with her head hanging low. Minutes passed and she slowly lifted her head. "I'm attracted to girls Mom." Her head fell back down after she told me, her brunette locks falling also. I stood up from my chair and made my way around the velvet cushioned bed to sit next to her.

I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and she leaned her head into my chest. "Oh my sweet baby." I spoke low staring at the door whilst resting my head on the top of her head. "Your not mad at me?" She sat back up and I laughed a little. "No Jessica, why would I be mad at you for being you? But I am a little sad you never told me sooner."

She smiled when I finished my sentence and threw her arms around me. "I love you mom."

"I love you more, now get out before your late for school." I smiled pushing her towards the door, she laughed and opened the door leaving.

Standing up I made my way into my walk in closet to pick out something to fit my curves, something sexy. I rummaged the closet and pulled out a black fitted dress that just came above the knees pairing it with some black Louis Vuitton heels with the red bottom.

Scanning my coats I titled my head singing a song as I tried to figure out what color to pair with my all black outfit. "The light beige one would look good with that outfit." Jades voice said, I twirled around to see her leaning against the door frame her arms resting on her bump. "Hey, how long have you been standing there?"

"Long enough, you know you really should get back into singing mom. You still sound like an angel." She smirked and my jaw dropped nearly hitting the floor. "I can't believe you heard that." I was baffled, the song I sang was a song I had made up in my head that was about my feelings toward Justin. "Mom you know it's okay to share your feelings, holding them in won't help you." She smiled pushing her self off the frame and taking a seat on the plush puff in the middle of the closet.

"Your one in a million." I winked and she flashed me a white smile as if she was to say 'I know I am.''

I gave her a tight smile turning on my heel and grabbing down the beige coat from its hangar. "Arms in or just thrown over the shoulder?" I put one arm into one sleeve and put the other over my shoulder. "Definitely over the shoulder."

I nodded throwing it over my shoulder and she nodded smiling at me. "Would you like to come to work with me today my precious bean?" I asked bending down in front of her and squashing her cheeks between two of my fingers. "No thank you, I am going to meet Kane because we have a scan today."

I nodded kissing her on the cheek. "When do you find out the gender?" I asked slipping into my Louis Vuitton heels. "Today so I'll call you as soon as we know." She smiled standing up to her feet and heading out into my bedroom, I followed picking up my sunglasses from the bedside table and putting them on, grabbing my purse from the floor I walked towards the door with Jade behind me. "Well I don't mind once our prince or princess is happy and healthy." I smiled as we walked down the hall towards the stairs.

"Yeah, I've got to get dressed but I'll give you a call soon." I nodded kissing her on the cheek, I watched her as she turned and waddle into her room. I continued walking then made my way down the stairs to where I could hear Madison and Josh arguing quietly as it was everyday. The stress of the baby was hitting them hard and they haven't stopped fighting since Josh' drunken mistake.

Walking into the kitchen the both of them was sat at the island with the laptop open. "Morning you two." I smiled setting down my purse on the island and pouring myself a fresh cup of coffee. "Morning mom." Josh spoke low and his eyes never left the screen of the laptop. Madison gave me a bright smile and I returned the gesture. "What are you two doing?" I asked bringing the cup to my lips and drinking the hot liquid. "Looking for two bedroom apartments." Madison spoke and I nodded, Josh looked like he was exhausted and stressed out.

"Sorry mom I barely got any sleep last night." He gave me a sad smile and I nodded. "I better get going or I'll be late for a meeting, love you guys." I spoke finishing my coffee and picking up my purse rushing out of the kitchen to the door. "Bye love you!" They both yelled and I chuckled pulling open the front door and closing it behind me. Unlocking my car I opened the door and climbing in to the drivers seat. Closing the door I set my bag down in the passengers seat and started up the engine, I drove out of the drive way and into the busy streets of Chicago.