Always avoiding everything around.
Acting as though I'm mute, deaf, and blind all at the same time.
Avoidance is key, especially when dealing with misery.
Somtimes even avoiding me.
Not sometimes, always.
Avoid the things you don't understand.
I don't understand me.
So I always just avoid me...
I avoid becoming an annoyance by not speaking at times.
I'm always in fear that I'll annoy you enough to make you stop speaking me.
I've grown fearful of everything I do.
Funny thing is while I'm writing this I'm actually okay.
Although I'm curious of who you speak of.
But I'm just here waiting and wondering for the answers to questions that have both been asked and yet have not escaped my lips.
I'm always waiting and wondering.
Typical me, you see...
You know I thought you'd been avoiding me, going separate paths than you used to take, but I guess I can understand it.
I don't know.
Ow... I'm so okay that I almost didn't feel that painful warmth in my back.
I do now, it hurts but I'm still okay.
Maybe I really have gone insane.
I'd rather be a positive neutral than a negative one.
I guess you just make me happy, great things are coming your way.
At least that's what I think, that's the instincts and energies, so I guess take it from me.
I feel really happy, like my face keeps twitching back to a smile, like it'd actually like to stay on my face for a while.
Different.
Ow. I feel like laughing. The pain just hurts so much. But I still feel like I'm going to laugh myself to tears. I feel so weird.
This was written on separate days by the way, although the mood swings are an accurate representation of my day.
Well, anyway.
Have a great day.
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Depression Is My Kryptonite
कविताA jumble of extremely depressing poems written by me. And ramblings that feature mood swings every other second. Oh well.
