Depression Is My Kryptonite

Exhausted Warrior

I feel weak.
Like I'm going to collapse.
It's not a new feeling.
It's been here before.
I think I've exhausted myself entirely.
Always trying to go the extra mile.
Never giving myself a nice break.
But if I stop then I know what will happen.
I have to keep moving forward or something bad will happen.
That's what I always think.
That's why I block everything out and just continue to move on.
That's why I am the way I am.
I just have to keep moving forward.
But it's killing me.
And taking a break hurts too.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I just know that I have to keep pushing myself.
Even if it breaks me.
Even if it destroys whatever is even left within me.
I have to.
I can't give up now.
Not when I've come so far and accomplished so little.
I have to make more of this.
I have to be more than this worthless sack of shit that I am now.
I have to make something of my life.
I have to keep fighting.
I have to be a fearless warrior.
Unafraid to get back up and continue battle.
I don't know why.
I don't expect any of you to understand.
I just fucking have to.
I don't know what the point was of writing this.
I'm tired.
But that's my life.
I just have to use the exhaustion to my advantage.
Before I let it break my will.