Depression Is My Kryptonite

Ry-Ry,

I've left the door open for you to talk to me millions of times, it's never been closed. You have just decided that no one cares and I try everyday, but I just can't pull you off of your ledge. I get that you have your own issues that you deal with and I'm sorry that I turn to you without warning. I was just trying to find an open ear because they aren't offered to me directly. At this point, I don't care if you go after the other best friend, I just don't want to see you get hurt by her. Not the other way around. I know that my doubt and constant need for reassurance annoys and confuses you, but even if I don't respond to it directly, it helps. I don't mean to sound cruel,but why can't you take what you give to everyone else? You're painfully honest about how I act and in what way it bothers you, but I make one comment and immediately you get super pissed off. And I don't do that very often, at least I haven't been in a while, because I know how it affects you. But sometimes I have to turn away from the blades and go to someone I trust. I'm going to talk to B about setting up counseling. I need it and you don't need my problems shoveled onto your lap every time you crack the window open. I don't know what else to say other than I'm sorry. I've tried to offer advice, but our situations are completely different and whatever I say just gets shot down anyway. I've tried, you can't say that I haven't tried. I know that I don't have some miraculous cure for all of your issues, but at some point you just have to take whatever sympathy you can get and run with it. Find whatever open door or window and fucking break in. You've had so many chances that you've just refused to take. I haven't ever told you to stop talking about what's wrong. There hasn't been a time when I've told you that listening to your mommy issues is annoying. Why can't you just accept what I've offered? And this is not a backlash, this isn't meant to hurt you in anyway possible. It just seems you need a reality check on who's been trying their damnest to be there for you for the past few months. And have you thought that maybe you aren't ready for another relationship? When the time is right then you'll know, but you can't continue to force it. Apologies for the truth, but at this point I feel that it'll be of some use to you. Although you may not see it right away. Someday you'll look back and realize. Apologies my friend.