Depression Is My Kryptonite

Dissociation

Sitting here shaking.
My body just completely lost control.
I forgot to breathe in a moment of panic.
It's been happening all day.
But that one was the most painful.
I don't know.
I don't want to acknowledge how much it hurts.
In fact, I've been avoiding it a lot lately.
But holding it in is only making it worse.
Those moments of confusion have a different kind of energy to them.
One moment I'm fine and then the next I feel like my entire body is being controlled by someone else.
And then I'm fine again.
Laughing and joking along with my bestie.
I don't know how to go along with this.
I don't know what other self diagnosis to appoint myself.
I don't know another way to go along with the mood swings.
I just have to keep rolling with it and make sure I don't lose myself in the process.
I'm sorry.
I just couldn't stay silent about this.
I've been too out of it lately to not address it.
I'm going to go back to ignoring the issue and enjoying the rest of our conversation.
Have a good night my readers.