My hands are shaking
But that's not why...
My heart is pounding
But that's not why...
I can't breathe
But that's not why-
Not why I'm worried,
No not this time
Because I feel... this
All the time...
No, I'm worried,
I'm fucking terrified
Because this time
I found the escape hatches...
And she asked
Why I wouldn't move,
As though I sit
Frozen by choice,
So I moved
One step closer
To an escape hatch
And waited
Until she let me
Run,
Run far away,
But really
Just a step back
From another escape hatch...
No I'm not scared
By my body
Betraying me
To anxiety
No I'm scared
By my brain
That's playing again
Playing a sick role
In a sick game
To a sick song
Called... well...
Let's not
Call it that
Quite yet...
My hands are shaking
Heart pounding
Throat closing,
But I will be ok
Because I walked away
From the escape hatch
And let myself freeze
Waiting just waiting
To stop playing.
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Random Thoughts
PoetryThis is kind of just my brain and random thoughts I feel like sharing with someone in the middle of the night. Don't take any of it for more than it is because I'm always fine. Also, please don't judge the whole book by the first few poems. I promis...
