Why build up my expectations
Just to watch them fall?
Why trust your drawn out explanations
That I don't relate to at all?
Why wait around for pure elation
When the facts of reality appall?
I'm trying to be happy,
But my mind is saying no.
I'm trying to feel free,
But the little things won't let me go.
I'm trying to see,
But I can't "go with the flow."
It's the best day of the year,
But for me it's not too great.
It's the fact that he's always here,
Growing all my hate.
It's the growing feeling of fear
That comes on this confusing date.
I can find moments to enjoy,
But I'm always pulled back.
I can hope he won't annoy,
But there's always an inadvertent attack.
I can try not to let it destroy
Me even though in cheer I lack.
If only there weren't a rule,
Maybe I wouldn't feel so bad.
If only comparisons weren't so cruel,
Maybe I wouldn't get so mad.
If only I could find some fuel,
Maybe this day wouldn't make me so sad.
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Random Thoughts
PoesiaThis is kind of just my brain and random thoughts I feel like sharing with someone in the middle of the night. Don't take any of it for more than it is because I'm always fine. Also, please don't judge the whole book by the first few poems. I promis...
