hey jinxx here
so a few days ago someone asked me how i felt, and i said i was okay
and that person said that i sounded sad and depressed, and i thought about it for a moment and i came to the conclusion that i didn't felt anything close to that
i wasn't happy nor sad, but deep down i knew something was wrong with me
i guess over the time i got angrier and angrier due to the circumstances, and i can't really tell you why but i'll explain it
i feel so angry, i just want to break stuff, i want to hurt someone, i'm afraid of myself right now, i'm afraid that something will snap inside of me and that i'll hurt my friends
truth is i used to have anger management issues but i guess i gain control of it, i've hurted some people in the past (physically) and i blame myself for that, sometimes i start to wonder if i'm a bad person for wanting to hurt people
and now i'm scared that i'll lose it, and that somehow this person will come up for air and hurt people
and i've noticed lately that some stuff i say aren't nice at all, and the worst is that i don't regret saying them but i know i have to apologize
i'm just tired of all of this, of people thinking i'm something i'm not, and talking about me in general, even if it's good in a way
i just can't to be honest, i'm just losing my mind
i feel like giving up sometimes, but i don't
sorry for this serious thing i guess, i hoped i didn't scared you with my insanity
now i question for you i guess, how do you feel? like really feel? comment, even if you write 10 lines i'll read it all
bai guys
