so i realized that i'm always complaining about how i am single and i have no one to cuddle with and watch horror movies and be cute with.
and i also realized how hard it would be for me to find a guy that i find just woah, because i have these really high expectations of how a boy should act and etc that were caused by reading and writing so many fanfictions. [and also seeing andy biersack's face but well that's another topic]
i wrote a really cute story not long ago and every time i read it again i'm like "dude why can't i find a boy that will treat me like this and that will take me to concerts and just talk about shit that makes no sense with me"
after creating that perfect guy, no other guy is good enough or fits in that profile i made in my imagination, and this is so stupid bc c'mon i don't want to be alone to the rest of my life and yes i know no one's perfect but i blame my expectations and band members
before anyone tells that i never had a boyfriend or some shit like that [not that anyone gives a shit about my love life]
i had at least a serious relationship and trust me it was the most awkward thing i've ever experienced and the boy broke up with me via text message [he also sent the same thing to facebook, just in case i didn't check my phone]. lovely right?
welcome to ness' [non-existent] love life
