Can't Fall in Love Without You (Christian Yelich)

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Very adult content below. 😳
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"I'm sorry, sir. We did everything we could."

He'd heard it before. Too often. It was never supposed to be about his Ellie. The pain nearly crushed him. This time he lost his Ellie and their baby.

Christian woke up with a gasp, his hands shaking and tears falling steadily down his cheeks. He'd been having those dreams for two months now, ever since his mom's funeral. He held Elizabeth close every night, but the dreams never left.

4:38am. He needed to go back to bed.

"Chris? Baby, you okay?" Elizabeth whispered, turning to face him in his arms.

"Go back to bed, baby. I love you," he whispered, gently kissing her forehead. "You have to work tomorrow. I'm okay and you need rest," he said quietly, holding her close.

"Hmm... mkay. Love you," she whispered, already asleep in his arms again.

God he almost lost this. He almost lost his everything.

***

Elizabeth had gotten up before Christian for the first time in a few weeks, so she intended on taking advantage of it. She made them breakfast, making Christian a pre-workout shake and a protein-heavy meal.

"My sweet, beautiful Ellie," Christian smiled and wrapped his arms around her waist, gently kissing her neck. "You are so unbelievably beautiful and thoughtful. I love you."

Elizabeth could feel his smile at the nape of her neck, which caused her to smile. Christian had been so clingy since she let him back in. Every possible waking moment was spent holding her or kissing her.

And Elizabeth wasn't complaining. She felt worshipped and so beautiful... to an extent.

"Babe? What if I work out with you today?" She'd seen the pictures of Sloane, and every single one of his other girlfriends. She looked nothing like them, and it was starting to get to her. She was so... ordinary.

"Of course I would love your company, beautiful. But I also want you to know that I love everything about you. Your body is perfect," he smiled, his hands holding her waist. "God you turn me on just making protein pancakes."

Elizabeth blushed and flipped the pancakes, a bit conflicted. "I think I'll come, just to see."

"I'd love that. I love you," he sighed happily and kissed her again.

"I love you, too, Christian," she smiled a bit, she always meant it.

***

Christian held Ivy on his lap, gently rocking the girl. "I'm so happy mama didn't leave dad, princess. But dad is so so scared. He can't lose you or your mom." He couldn't. He wouldn't survive losing either of them.

Elizabeth Calling

Her contact picture was of Elizabeth and Ivy smiling at each other. It melted Christian, but now he was terrified.

"Hi, Ellie," Christian smiled softly, holding Ivy closer.

"I have kinda bad news, babe," her voice was slightly sad and very stressed.

Oh god. She was sick. He almost lost her because of his actions, but now he'd actually lose her.

"Are you okay?" he whispered, tears falling down his cheeks. He couldn't do this. He couldn't lose her.

"I'm fine, sweetie. I'm okay, please don't worry," Elizabeth sighed, forgetting how easily he was spooked. "I have to reschedule our date Saturday. I have a conference in San Diego on Saturday."