✨It Doesn't Even Matter✨

To Be Concerned

"Ms.Hermann." I stepped to the side and she took a deep breath.
"When you were late to my class today I thought that you were going to skip. I felt angry and so disappointed in you, you're my best student. I don't expect slacking from you in anyway shape or form."
"Yes Ms.Zabala." She fixed my hair and I felt slightly uncomfortable.
"Is that note the reason why you were late young lady?"
"Well, Yes. It's very complicated ma'am."
"Well, I hope you resolve that conflict. You're worrying me Ms.Hermann. Fix it."
"Yes, of course."
"Go to lunch young lady." I went downstairs to lunch and sat with my friends at our regular table.
"I heard Zabala pulled you to the side. Are you alive?" Joy asked.
"Barely. Your ex made me late."
"Cody..What happened?" I handed her the letter and she put it in his bag.
"Why the frick is he giving me a letter after what he did."
"Same thing I asked him. Up to you if you want to entertain him." I turned around for a swift second and I saw him looking at me. He gave me a thumbs up and I rolled my eyes.
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On The Set Of SVU
My mom was filming the 21st season of her show and I watched as she did some super serious scenes. I wasn't allowed to hear the things going on, but I could truly relate to it. It spoke to me in a spiritual level. SA was something that was a part of who I am. I can't ignore it.
"You did great Mama." I was texting one of my older friends Sophia (Uncle Chris's daughter) about some personal things. She told me a while back that Josh lives near her and she's keeping an eye on him for me.
Sophia😍: your bf is so loyallll..I haven't seen him with any other girl or anything like that! Sis, you got yourself a good man.
Me: Yh. Ig.
Sophia😍: What's wrong?
I didn't answer and looked at my mother.
"You okay?"
"Whatever." I whispered.
"You look annoyed about something."
"Not now Mama."
Sophia😍: Allie, is something up?
Me: dw
"Okay, I'm here if you need me love. You know that. Wanna go grab a bite to eat with me?"
"Totally." I smiled and she gave me a hug.
"I booked your braces appointment the other day. Are you excited?"
"To not be able to eat popcorn?! I dunno about that." We went to go buy some pizza, it's not like we could have a whole sit down meal or something like that.
"Please margarita pizza..."
"That's what we're getting love." That's like one of the only pizzas I'll put in my mouth willingly. It's just so good.
"Mom, we haven't had Mother-daughter day in a bit. What's up with that?"
"Well, I've been so busy. Coming home after the littles go to bed and all. I haven't had time to think of things to do with all four of you kids. I know you understand that though."
"Yeah, I do."
"I wanna actually watch what you're filming."
"You know I won't let you. You're only 11."
"Hey! I'm turning twelve in a bit."
"Still, not age appropriate."
"Well, I already know about what's happening."
"I know you do, just wait until I'm ready to let you watch."
"Okay." I started eating the pizza because I was so hungry and needed food.
"Sooo, Mom?"
"Yes babe."
"I was wondering when I could visit Joshua."
"When?"
"Yeah, like when are you going to LA so I could tag along maybe..."
"I'm going there in a couple of months."
"Can I come?"
"It's on a school day."
"But pleaseeeeee." Mama barely let's us skip a day of school! Unless, of course, if it's the day before a break. We don't learn on those days anyways..
"No, you have to go to school Allie. We're not arguing over this, school comes before boys." I knew better than to say anything at this point. I just had to keep my trap shut.
"Yes Mama."
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Hip-Hop
"Tag yo friends, tag your friends tag 'em in." I jumped in with Joy and we started dancing.
"More energy Allie! More energy!"
"Go 'head your friends." My teacher paused the music there and I turned around.
"What's going on?! I thought you loved this duet."
"I do..I'm just not feeling my best today."
"Take 5 guys." I went to go into my dance bag and drank some water.
"You've been off all day. What's going on?"
"Don't worry about it."
"What do you mean don't worry about it?! Is something going on? Tell me."
"Fine. So basically, my mom is going to LA in a few months."
"Really?! You can get to see Josh!"
"Exactly, but she won't let me go."
"Why not?"
"Because it's a school day and blah, blah, blah. She's so annoying about school."
"It's not like one day is gonna kill you or something. You could always make up work."
"Exactly! I'm willing to do that. But I don't know how she'll let me go."
"Guilt trip her."
"How?"
"Don't speak to her for a couple of days."
"That works?"
"Mhm. It drives Mom's crazy when their kids won't talk to them. Try it."
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Dinner Time (Mariska's Perspective)
"Allison, you know better than to just sit there with an empty plate." I said sternly. She drummed her fork and knife against her plate and defied me.
"Allison." She ignored me again, and messed with her shirt.
"Allison, you need to eat something." Peter said. He had my back as always. Raising a pre-teen girl isn't easy, and it doesn't get easier. She pushed away her plate and rested her head on the dining table.
"You can go to your room until you feel like acting properly." She got up swiftly and ran up to her room.
"She's so weird Mama." Amaya commented.
"Tell me about it." We talked throughout dinner about the kids sports, school, and possible vacations.
"Oh,can we please go back to Puerto Rico?!" Andrew begged.
"We'll see."
"That's better than Italy to be honest Mom." Amaya finished her plate and put it in the sink.
"Wow, that's a first."
"Plus the flight is shorter, so it's easier on everyone."
"You guys are really working for this trip." Peter added.
"We'll consider it. We promise."
"Yay!" I went upstairs to go check on Allie.
"Come down and eat." I said. She kept doing her homework and didn't reply.
"Hello?!"
"Why are you being like this today?!" She looked at me and then sat at her desk.
"Allie, I don't like this behavior of yours. It's very disrespectful to ignore someone when they're speaking to you."
"Allison, What is going on? Are you hurt? Do you have an ache?" I absolutely loathed this right now. Why is she ignoring me?! I felt her forehead and she didn't have a fever.
"Allison, what's wrong?!"
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10 PM (Allie's Perspective)
Joy😔💖: How's the plan going?
Me: I'm not sure rn tbh.
Joy😔💖: It'll work, just gotta give it some days.
Me: OMG brb, my dad's coming in
"Allison?" I didn't reply and looked straight into his eyes.
"Wanna talk about something?" I didn't move and kept staring at him.
"Are you hurt? You're being really quiet and tame."
"Allie...please, talk to me at least." I pulled my covers over my head and closed my eyes.
"Alright, goodnight. I love you ladybug." He gave me a kiss and left. Thank goodness!