[Quin]
When he finished offering flowers to me like we're on a date, he serenaded me in front of everyone. He was like a paramour, and he was breathtaking. The dim lights, the crowd and the stage did not matter. Kahit ang technical team at lahat ng staff.
Sa panahong iyon, inaamin kong para akong lumilipad. Yes. Crazy. So damn crazy.
It was sweet and endearing, but very uncomfortable too. May parte sa akin na gusto na lang magpadala, pero ang katotohanang hindi ako ang tipo ng taong ibibigay ang lahat para lamang masira sa huli, pinigil ko ang sarili.
Pahiyang-pahiya na ako sa mga tao. Lalo na ngayon at sinabi nilang matutupad na raw ang isa sa mga pangarap ko. Isang pangarap na kahit sinong babaeng nandito sa arena ay aasamin, inaasam.
What do they even know about my dreams?
Kissing Raven anywhere but his lips was never been one of my them! Gustong-gusto ko nang sabihing 'No Thanks' but I don't wanna be rude or I wouldn't be able to go home alive. Idagdag pa ang katotohanang hindi ko man lang mahagilap ang pinsan ko na siya naman talagang ipinunta ko rito.
I never wanted to do this, nor I dreamed of doing this. Hindi ko alam kung kailan din ako tinubuan ng balat sa pwet kaya ako minamalas nang ganito.
Just an expression. Sa sobrang malas ay mas mabuti pang nagdedeliryo na lang ako. No, Raven! Jut not him, please. Why is this even happening when it shouldn't be at all?
Gusto ko nang umuwi. I badly want to go home this instance sleep, and forget every little damn that happened here. Only then would I be able to trick my mind that this is all just a dream.
Pero hindi. Kasi totoo 'to. I can only survive this if I go with the flow. Endure to be exact. Kailangan kong tiisin ang presensiya ng taong ni minsan ay hindi ko naisip na gawing parte ng aking buhay.
Hindi ako sanay na may lalaking umaakbay sa'kin, hinahawakan ang kamay ko, mataman akong tinititigan na parang ako lang ang nakikita niya— and telling me sweet words aside from Lawrence that fazed me whig should never happen anyway.
But he's not Lawrence.
He's the man I'm secretly crushing on to and precisely the man I'm trying to forget. Ayaw kong aminin, but Raven has made his way deep into me and throwing him out is next to impossible.
Kaya kahit sobrang nakakahiya at imposibleng gawin ko, I did kiss him on his cheeks. It was fast that it didn't even almost... touch. I didn't know why but the audience were so ecstatic about it. Maybe because they just want to enjoy even if they aren't given the chance to be here in front.
Even if he kissed me already on the lips— it's so different being the one who initiates the deed. We're not so close so why would I?
If he chooses lucky fans during his concerts, does this mean he was kissed by a lot of people already? Why am I disappointed?
He's a celebrity. It's part of his job! This is the field he is specialized in. The entertainment industry. Pleasing people. Pleasing them in any way.
Nasa ganoong disposisyon ako nang may marahang kumuha sa aking kamay. It turned out to be Raven. Before I could even utter any word, he bent down and did one of the craziest thing I could imagine he'll do. It was a slow motion, damn it.
He kissed my hand. Good heavens, he kissed my hand!
Pinapatay niya ako sa ginawa niya. While everyone squealed in sheer joy, I was left with no choice but to avoid making eye contact to him, or to anyone for that matter.
May magbabago. Alam ko. The only thing that I have to do is to know how I will throw him out... again.
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BINABASA MO ANG
A Crossroad ✔
RomanceQuindal Angelo is uptight, too focused on her dreams and selfish preferences. She's the epitome of a woman who won't need a man for the rest of her life. Like, why would she? She hates complications. But, not until the handsome- ahem ahem, the dro...
