[Quin]
"Hey, are you still there?" rinig kong tanong ni Lawrence mula sa kabilang linya. Hindi ko siya sinagot at nanatili lang akong nakatitig sa kawalan habang parang mga anino na lang ang aking mga nakikita.
"Yooho?!" Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako as I positioned the phone closer on my ear. Mukhang wala talaga siyang balak na tantanan ako.
"Yes... What's the matter?" Napilitan din akong imikin siya. Even when I want to have some silence now, like how alnost everyday works if my parents are busy, Anne is asleep, Lawrence is at work and the kids are in school. The silence creeps me but I like it.
"Nothing. I'm just checking you out. Where's my baby?" patungkol niya kay Anne. I glanced at the person just some meters away from me.
"Asleep in the sofa,"ipid kong sagot. Napa-oh lang siya habang napahawak naman ako sa aking braso at dinama ang katigasan ng aking mga buto.
"And Tita? Tito?" Napalingon ako sa isa pang kama kung saan magkatabing natutulog sina mom at dad. I smiled bitterly as I gazed at them.
"Asleep too..." Sinubukan kong bumangon pero hindi ko kaya. I frustratedly blew a loud breath as I hid the groan in my voice when my hand hurt so bad. Damn it. Even in sitting, I can't even help myself!
"Don't do anything stupid, okay? I'll go now. Bye. Take care, Quinnie." Matapos magpaalam ay pinatay ko na rin ang tawag at itinuon na lang ang buong atensiyon sa pagbangon. Itinukod ko ulit ang siko sa kama at buong lakas na itinulak ang katawan pataas.
Wrong move dahil nawalan agad ng lakas ang aking siko kaya bumagsak ulit ako sa kama like there is a magnet there and I am opt to stay bedridden until I die. I lost balance, making me roll in the bed and down to the floor. Natumba ang sabitan ng dextrose at sumakit ang kamay ko dahil na rin sa pagkakahila sa IV na nakatusok sa'kin.
The cold and hard tiled floor was punishing on my sickly body but there was no pain that let me scream in agony. I can't help but tear up, not because I was hurt when I fell down but because I felt so useless again. Walang kwenta at... At mas mabuti na lang na mamatay!
"J-Jusko! 'Nak! Ano'ng nangyari sa'yo?" Humahangos na tinulungan ni dad si mom na makaupo sa wheelchair para makapunta sa'kin. Nagising din si Anne na tulog sa may sofa. The sound of my fall and even the dextrose stand must have hit the vase on one of the table and it fell too.
Yumakap ako sa kanila at hinayaang maiyak ang sarili. I thought I'm tired of crying already, why am I being like this now? This weak-hearted and... And crybaby just because I can't help myself up?
"Gosh! What happened to you, Quinnie?" nag-aalalang tanong ni Anne habang pinagtutulungan nila akong makaupo sa kama. I flinched in the slight pain caused by the fall and even how gentle they helped me up, masakit pa rin. Ang aking paa, balakang at kamay.
"I just wanna sit," I answered, my voice hoarse. Patagal nang patagal ay mas lalong dumidepino ang labis na panghihina ng katawan ko. It's scary. Paano ko na lang kaya maaabot ang pangarap kong umabot sa edad na bente otso kung ganito na ako kabilis... na hinahabol ng kamatayan?
"You should've called for help," kalmadong pahayag ni dad sa nagpapaalalang tono na mas lalong nagpasama naman sa nararamdaman ko.
"Why can't I do it alone? May sakit lang ako pero hindi ako baldado!" hindi ko mapigilang ibulalas na siyang pinagsisihan ko kaagad. My head ache made the better of me again and I can't help but close my eyes tight to stop myself from screaming from it. It was like hammered repeatedly and it was so painful.
Just so painful!
"Are you alright? You need painkillers, 'nak?" I immediately shook my head, feeling mom's hands on my shoulders.
BINABASA MO ANG
A Crossroad ✔
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