A Crossroad ✔

Chapter 72: Blame

[Quin]

"So how do you feel, Ms. Angelo? With your current eye and after the transplant, is everything okay?" sunod-sunod na tanong ni Doctor Stevens habang pinapaikot ang ballpen gamit ang mga daliri. He's the doctor Raven trade arrangements with regarding my eye check ups and therapy.

He was also the doctor who helped Raven find an eye donor and until now, siya pa rin ang nagche-check up sa akin kung hindi available ang doktor na nasa LA. He asks me the same questions but it is all normal.

I can't say I'm cancer free already but doctors told me my life will be better from now on. Hindi naman ako umaasang gumaling dahil alam ko namang imposible. Ang sa akin lang, maging maayos ang buhay ko at tumagal pa kasi andami ko pa palang mga pangarap na hindi naisasakatuparan.

"There are some times that I have a hard time adjusting to luminous rooms and lights. It is normal, right?" kalmante kong pagkukuwento habang nakaupo sa visitor's chair ang opisina niya. Malinis ang silid, may iilan lamang mga nakakalat na papeles sa mesa niya pero hindi naman mas'yado.

Lawrence on the other hand is sitting on the sofa some meters away, silent and listening attentively to our conversation. Siya ang sumama sa akin dito kasi kasalukuyan pang nagpapagaling at sumasailalim sa mga therapy si Raven at inaalagaan naman ni Anne si Georgina.

Katatapos lang ng christmas break at sa ospital kami nagbakasiyon. Raven's room were crowded with his friends and associates who were really happy for his recovery. His fans lit a billboard greeting for him and hm, some of his ex-girlfriends also came to visit.

Naiinis syempre pero nasa nakaraan na iyon. Alam naman nila kung sino ako at ang respeto nila kahit kaplastikan lang ay sapat na. You can't expect someone such as an ex who is still having some special feelings for your fiancé to be very fine with the setup.

"That could be but to be sure, we will run some tests again and see if there are any discrepancies compared to the last round of test we had." Tipid akong ngumiti bilang tugon. Matapos ang ilan pang mga katanungan na matapat kong sinagot at paalala ay nagpaalam na ako sa kan'ya.

Kasama ko ngayon sina Lawrence at George. Hindi ako pumayag sa pagpupumilit ni Raven na sumama dahil hindi pa siya nadi-discharge at dahil hindi rin naman mabuti sa kan'ya iyon. Kumag na 'yon. Naghahanap talaga ng mga problema.

He has to always take good care of himself and abide to what the doctors said so he can recover the fastest possible.

Ngumiti lang sa akin si Lawrence bago binuhay ang makina ng kotse. Nasa passenger's seat ako nakaupo habang nasa backseat naman si George na tahimik lang din.

"You're gonna be fine, Quinnie. Just follow the doctors and always take care of your eye. Raven was desperate for that. If only you've seen him almost raking all possible deals that if he has no other choices left, he would definitely trade in the black market." Napabuntong-hininga ako sa naging pahayag niya.

"Did he spend so much money for it?" nag-aalalang tanong ko. I am grateful for his sacrifices but it if would mean it would compromise him from the life that he has been used to, ang hirap tanggapin. Ayaw kong makalimutan niya kung sino siya nang dahil lang sa akin.

I want him to be the same Raven who loves fashion and anything close to that. I want him to buy things for himself without worrying for budget and money because he has me as a baggage... Ayaw kong maging pabigat din sa kan'ya gayong hindi naman siya naging pabigat sa akin.

"You bet? But don't make it a big deal, we didn't let him spend everything alone. We all helped him so don't give me that look." Napairap ako nang bahagya pero magaan na ang pakiramdam. Habang iniisip ko ang lahat ng sakripisyo nila para sa akin at ayun ako, iniisip na wala na talaga... I realized how heartless it was for me.