[Quin]
"Because I like you, Quindal Angelo." The way his eyes inspected mine when he said that was too much. I was never used to confessions, so why am I receiving one from... the person I like?
"And I'm falling... hard, fast." I was speechless. I don't know how to respond at all. What would it mean to fall, anyway? May basis ba para malaman mong nahuhulog ka na sa isang tao? At ano ba'ng mas dapat gawin? Just be in love? Or fall in love?
"I'm gonna court you." All I did was be stuck at the moment with him. Unmoving, unresponsive. In daze. I never knew I could be stunned about something, some words that came out of his lips and I don't even have any idea if it is all real.
"Even if it'll take years... I'm gonna wait." Wait? Gano'n din ba ang ginawa niya sa loob ng walong taon? How could a person wait for someone when there is no assurance they would come back? How could Raven do that gayong wala naman talaga akong balak a bumalik para sa... kan'ya.
"Didn't I tell you you're mine?" I admit that part too. I was his for every reasons possible. I don't know how he was able to tame me, but I was like the free bird. I have eloped millions of times from people and the connections there would be. Nakatakas ako mula sa kanila pero heto ako at nakakulong sa mga bisig niya.
"Spare me, I've never been this serious my life." He's an asshole. So why is he being serious?
Napabalikwas ako ng bangon habang habol-habol ang aking hininga. Para lang akong tumakbo nang ilang milya pauwi. Palayo mula sa nakababaliw na paninitig sa'kin ni Raven. At sa hindi ko matakas-takasang hagupit ng kan'yang mga salitang tuluyan nang sumira sa lahat ng harang ko.
Naalala ko naman ang mga sinabi niya. Lahat-lahat. He confessed! And I was so stunned I couldn't even look away, step back, tell him any response or even breath. I felt like drowning from all the emotions I felt and I can't even swim away or even up to survive.
The bubbles invaded me and I was powerless from the stormy waves that attacked under the bliss of the sun.
We crossed paths... and I thought I could just pass by. Pero hindi. Dahil hindi niya ako hinayaan.
Eight years ago, maybe it was to my advantage. Maybe I was able to walk away because it was fate's way of telling me at least I should be prepared. Be prepared because what I am about to grasp is something not anyone can take.
That I should find happiness my own because the day will come when it will be dependent on someone else's feelings.
Ngayon, hindi ko masabing siya lang ang natutuwa sa ganito. Kasi ako, masaya ako. Masaya ako na nandito lang siya sa aking tabi at handang mag-alay ng kahit ano. Kahit ano!
I have never heard any confessions before. I avoided them. Marami ang sumusubok pero hindi ko sila pinagbibigyan. Umaalis kaagad ako. I turn them down even before they can start. Siya lang. Siya lang ang diretsahang nagsabi at hindi ko siya napigilan.
Kasi alam kong gusto ko ring makinig. Masaya ako. Oo, I am very happy because he likes me too! Who won't be when you have mutual feelings to someone you like even though how impossible they can be?
Pero hanggang kailan?
Baka magsawa siya. Baka makahanap siya ng iba. Baka iwan niya ako. Baka laro lang 'to.
Hindi naman ako takot maiwan at mang-iwan nang kahit sino, pero iba ngayon. I was left behind by my own father and I almost lost my mother that I cant be left behind again! Mas mabuti pang ako ang mang-iwan kaysa maiwanan!
Mas'yado na akong napalapit sa kan'ya kaya halos dumepende na ako. I don't know if I should regret being attached to him. Being attached to anybody would mean you let yourself be broken anytime by a simple goodbye.
BINABASA MO ANG
A Crossroad ✔
RomanceQuindal Angelo is uptight, too focused on her dreams and selfish preferences. She's the epitome of a woman who won't need a man for the rest of her life. Like, why would she? She hates complications. But, not until the handsome- ahem ahem, the dro...
