[Quin]
"He's presenting a potential case of a mild memory loss," the doctor explained as soon as we got some private moment. Kanina pa halos ayaw bumitaw ni Raven sa akin pero kailangan kong makausap ang doktor.
I am worried why he acted that way earlier. I am not expectant of what happened—I mean, of course there is a big possibility he may have some sort of... Brain damages because he has suffered such accident but it wasn't amnesia. It is something more frustrating.
Nakita ko ang lito sa kan'yang mga mata habang nakatingin siya sa aming lahat, parang kilala na hindi kilala. He looks so confused and so I am too!
"Due to brain damage, he might not be able to recall several familiar faces for now." Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako. I expected this, alright. But the fact that he wont recognize familiar faces, what does it mean? He knows he has a fiancée named Quindal Angelo but he isn't sure if it is me?
"Pero maaalala po niya ang nakaraan niya?" I heard mom asked. Bigla tuloy akong kinabahan. I don't know how large that brain damage was. I... I don't even know what is the nature of this brain damage is because the localization of the parts that were affected are not very familiar to me.
The doctor may have explained, but I am still worried.
Paano kung hindi na nga niya ako maalala? Ibig bang sabihin noon ay magsisimula na naman kami sa dati? I... I would try to make him remember us and his head would ache every time like earlier? And what if there won't be any beginnings for us again?
I remembered how he looked at me earlier, paulit-ulit iyong naglalaro sa aking isipan. His eyes held curiosity in its depths. About who I am. About what I am doing inside that room. Hindi gan'yan tumingin ang Raven ko.
"He will remember, slowly. That is because his brain has not yet fully recovered from the damages it has. But do not worry, he'll be really fine after some therapy how to handle it." Tumikhim ang doktor at napahinga naman ako nang malalim.
"Although he will be really have a bad time recalling your names and so are other people he used to know." Mapait akong napangiti. Nagising na nga siya't lahat-lahat pero masakit pa rin. Natatakot pa rin ako na hindi na siya bumalik sa'kin.
Masaya ako. Kasi gising na nga siya. It's just that... I am one hell of the word scared because I... Andami kong kinatatakutan para sa amin at masama iyon kasi kailangan kong magtiwala sa aming dalawa. We have come this far...
Though the end is too far away too, it doesn't mean we won't be together still, right?
"Kahit naging malapit po sa kan'ya noon?" Javen asked in a soft tone.
"It depends. There are moderate cases. Let's just hope for the best. For now, huwag niyo munang binatin ang pasyente. He'll definitely remember on his own." Nang umalis ang doktor ay nanghihinang napayakap ako kay mom, mariing pumikit at pilit inaalis lahat ng mga negatibong pag-iisip. She caressed my cheeks and I realized I am so close to crying already.
"'Wag kang mawalan ng pag-asa, 'nak. Doctor na mismo ang nagsabing gagaling siya. Why don't we celebrate? Raven is alive. Tulad nang pinagdarasal natin. Buhay siya at kasama pa rin natin siya ngayon, katulad mo..." I nodded after some time as I took everything my mom said. She is right.
He's fine. He's going to be fine. And I can hold on to that.
***
"Kumain ka muna. Hindi ka pa kumakain simula nang magising ka..." Inilapag ko sa bedside table and tray na may pagkain bago naupo sa upuan katabi ng kama ni Raven, hawak-hawak ang braso.
I felt uncomfortable when I saw him staring at me since the very second I entered his room. His gray eyes settled on me like a microscope in a closed laboratory. Ayaw umiwas, kanina pa titig nang titig. At mas lalong hindi ako sanay kapag gan'yan siya.
BINABASA MO ANG
A Crossroad ✔
عاطفيةQuindal Angelo is uptight, too focused on her dreams and selfish preferences. She's the epitome of a woman who won't need a man for the rest of her life. Like, why would she? She hates complications. But, not until the handsome- ahem ahem, the dro...
