[Quin]
"Lawrence?" maliit ang boses na tawag ko sa kan'ya. Itinigil niya ang pagkakalikot sa cellphone niya at itinaas ang tingin sa akin.
"Hm? What's the matter, Quinnie?" Ngumiti ako sa kan'ya, trying to send a message indirectly and he frowned in response.
"Don't give me that look. I know you want me to do something for you." Napairap tuloy ako mula sa pekeng pagngiti. Ang bait talaga niya, note the sarcasm.
"Raven will..." His brows raised even more. "Have his concert here this October 30, right?" I asked him although I know the answer already. Naninigurado lang kahit sigurado na. I want to ask him a favor and I don't really know what he'll say. I bet it will be more than negative.
He grinned. "Yes. I'm always updated, Quinnie since I'mma fan," pagmamayabang niya pa. See? He is obsessed even though he too, has to cut his ties with him because of me.
Andaming naapektuhan ng nangyari sa akin. Hindi lang ako. Hindi lang ang pinansiyal na aspeto o kahit emosiyonal pa. Even their social relationships. Even their friendships. They had to spend almost every hour in here and refrain from any gatherings just to avoid spreading some news.
They had to almost... hide. All because of me!
"When will they release the tickets?" tanong ko sa kan'ya kahit alam ko na rin kung kailan. I scrolled through it online and let George read it for me because I cannot almost see clearly the texts and my eyes hurt so much from radiation.
"October 2, why do you ask?" Tinitigan ko ang picture frame na nasa gilid ko lang. It is our picture together when we celebrated our sixth monthsary in an exclusive beach resort. It was just the two of us in the picture while he was carrying me in the air but in the real sense, marami kami no'n.
His family and mine. Nataon kasing birthday ng pinsan niya at isa kami sa naimbitahan.
"Can you buy me a ticket too?" buong tapang kong tanong sa kan'ya, halos nanginig pa ang boses. I am always confident when I ask him some favors, but this time... It is different. Given the favor and my situation, it is next to impossible.
Nakita ko ang pagkalaglag ng panga niya kasabay nang marahas niyang pagtayo mula sa pagkauupo sa sofa.
"What?! No. Y-You can't." Hindi na rin ako nagulat sa pagtanggi niya pero hindi ko pa rin mapigilang masaktan. Damn it. Just... Damn it.
"Please, Lawrence. Gusto ko lang siyang makita... Even just far," pagmamakaawa ko na sa kan'ya. I don't beg, I don't usually insists when people say no. Pero iba 'to, iba kapag si Raven na! I missed him so bad and this is a very great opportunity!
"I... I want to try—"
"You brought this to yourself. You chose to leave, why go back now? Can't you see that you're sick already?! I can't risk your safety, you bitch. We want you to live longer and you rather die just to see that man?! F*ck that and your desperation!" Napaamang ako sa biglang pagsabog niya.
He looks so frustrated. Natamaan ako nang sobra sa kan'yang sinabi dahilan para manikip din nang sobra ang aking dibdib. Ako 'yong lumayo, dapat panindigan ko 'yon. I am the one who got sick and is dying! It is me who will poison him if he continues to be with me despite my countdown!
Bumigat ang aking hininga mitsa ng paninikip ng aking dibdib pero pilit kong hindi iyon ipahalata. I don't want Lawrence to blame himself... I just want to take all of it and leave peacefully.
Alam kong nakakasakit siya ng damdamin kapag galit, kahit sino naman siguro. And I deserve what he did. Tanga na nga siguro ako kung ipipilit ko 'yong kagustuhan kong makita ulit si Raven kahit iniwan, pinaglihiman at sinaktan ko na 'yong tao.
BINABASA MO ANG
A Crossroad ✔
RomanceQuindal Angelo is uptight, too focused on her dreams and selfish preferences. She's the epitome of a woman who won't need a man for the rest of her life. Like, why would she? She hates complications. But, not until the handsome- ahem ahem, the dro...
