Now and Forever (Twilight Seth Clearwater x Reader)

The Pack and Seth

I look at Edward and Bella, he already reading my mind nods and I make my way to Lapush leaving a confused Bella.

It took a little while but I slowly walked up to the house and knock on the door as nerves consume me.

I gulp and take in a shaky breath as the door opens to reveal Emily.

Her eyes widen as she sees me a quickly pulls me into a hug exclaiming "Y/n! Oh thank god your ok. We haven't heard from you in days.

What happened?" She pulls me inside to sit on the couch and I tell her everything.

"So you left with Bella and Alice to save his life." She repeats basically a summary of what I told her.

"Yes. I know it was dangerous and you all hate them but they mean the world to me. I'd risk my life for them just like I would for the pack." She nods understandably.

"I just don't want them to hate me." I say as my voice cracks wanting to cry.

She immediately hugs me and says "Hey, it's okay if anything you were brave, stupid but brave." She chuckles and I do to.

"They could never hate you." She says genuinely putting her hands on my shoulders with a kind smile.

I return the smile and sigh waiting for the rest to get here.

(Time skip)

"Emily, were here." I hear Sam shout from outside.

I take a deep breath and stand up from the couch as they all pile in.

They stop as soon as they see me and we just look at each other.

I couldn't tell what their emotions were so I just said "Hey." Awkwardly.

Embry is the first to move towards me and pull me into a hug.

I smile and return it.

"What happened? You like totally disappeared on us." I sigh and say "I know and I'm sorry, I'm sure you all know why though with Jake and the whole mind connection."

Sam speaks up "How could you put your life in danger like that? How could you be so reckless? Do you know how worried sick we were for you, you leave for four days and don't even say a word to us. And for what to go help the leech, if it wasn't already clear we have given them chances for your sake but I'm done they are a danger to you." Sam says in a harsh disappointing tone.

I look down as my eyes get glossy. "You are done with the Cullens, for good." He states.

I look up and say "You can't do that." He chuckles "Wanna bet. Charlie already hates them and just wait until I convince him they are bad for you and it won't take much. I don't understand how you can't see what they are doing to you. They left you heart broken without a care in the world and they come back so you go back to them. We were here for you not them. Your going to stay away and I'll see to it myself."

"It's not your choice Sam!" I shout.

He goes to speak but I cut him off "I love them just like I love you okay, stop trying to make me choose because I won't. You seem to forget they bonded with me too and I feel the same effects with all of you . Imagine they were the ones trying to keep me away from you huh."

I pause and says "But their not. It's always you who has the problem. I can't keep living in this drama I just want to be happy and they are what makes me happy along with you guys, so if you can't understand that then." I take a shaky breath wiping the tear that fell.

"I guess that I'll just stay away until you do because I can't keep doing this." I say rushing out he door as They silently stare to where I ran off sad and hurt.

(Time skip)

I sigh as I enter my house and run straight up into my room jump in my bed and just cry. I was so absorbed in that I didn't feel the dip in my bed and hand on my shoulder.

I look up finally seeing Bella there with a sad face assuming I was feeling the same way she was, we don't want to hurt anyone but we just want to be happy.

I lean into her touch as she pulls me closer hugging me and running her hand through my knotted y/h/c hair.

Eventually I went to sleep letting darkness consume me. *beep*beep* I wake up started by the sudden sound and look to my phone seeing I got a call, I look to the clock and see it's three twenty in the morning.

"Who could that be." I mumble still tired.

My eyes go wide seeing Seth's name pop up.

I jump awake and sit up in my bed answering it.

"Seth?" I question worried.

"Hey, I'm sorry about not talking to you the last few days, I know you said for me to call if I needed anything but I wanted be alone. But now I was wondering if you could come over and I know it's late but I need you. I can't sleep, and it hurts every time I think about him. The only time I feel okay is with you so please." He practically begs.

"Of course I'll be there in a few, leave your window open." I hand up and put on shoes and go out side to my bike, oh also did I mention we have finally earned our license and Dad said I could keep the bike.

I pull up as quietly as I could and sneak into his window easily using the ladder outside.

When I look to him I just see tired bags under his eyes and his whole demeanor has changed from happy and silly to just broken.

He sees me and says "Thanks for coming I - I just don't know what else to do." He sighs wanting to cry.

I run up to him and hug him saying" I'm always here, never forget that. And besides I've had a ruff day to, I think we both need the comfort." I say with a sad smile.

He just nods and we lay down me next time him holding his hand.

I look to him and see him already staring at me " You want to talk about it?" I ask.

He just sighs and says "I just really miss him, and I want him back. I don't see how this could just suddenly happen." I just hold his hand tighter as he keeps talking " My mom is so broken right now and I've been trying to act strong for her but it's hard and I don't even have Leah's help anymore." He says.

"What do you mean?" I ask. "They day after he uh died, I've never seen her so angry. We were all talking since mom thought it was best to be together and she just got so mad I was honestly afraid and she just stormed out the house and didn't come back for hours. She got a hair cut even a tattoo, she's never home and is just gone all hours of the day leaving me alone to deal with this. So I need someone and I could only think of you." He says with tears falling down his face.

I wipe his tears away and just pull him closer as he hold me and his breathing eventually calms down and he is asleep.

I get up and look at him I kiss his forehead and say
" I love you, and I promise I'll get you through this." I back away and look out the window seeing Leah walk to the house.

I meet her by my bike and she says "What are you doing here?"

"Comforting your brother" I say simply.

"Look I know whats going on with you, I didn't know it could happen to girls but I know it's hard being in the pack and yes I know, but he needs you Leah. Please." I say not giving her a chance to speak and hop on my bike driving back home.