2. A Definitive (Poetry)

-Ten-

The Way Songs Feel:

I'm ready,

I'm ready to feel 

I've been waiting night after night

Until 

It felt like I could swallow his presence in the room

And funnily enough he did it himself.

With a clean slate and a lighter heart

That I haven't felt in years

I'm almost terrified to have the chance to start

To feel anything real that isn't for him. 

To feel myself glow again after being dim

For so damn long I thought that was me. 

But me doesn't have to be the stand alone tragedy I see

When everyone crosses glances and I return 

To my empty bed in the pent house suite

Of my one shot mind.

I'm ready,

I'm ready to feel again.

Because for the first time in a handful of years

Not loving him is not on the list of my fears

I don't just want someone to look at me

The way the beach looks at sunset 

I want to look back at them and see

The sound of every single song

I've heard. 

I'm waiting for the chance to hear that song,

And by God am I going to fucking take it. 

~J.K.M.