2. A Definitive (Poetry)

-Fifty Five-

Peace In Solitude:

Back to peace in solitude, a calm peace in knowing

I am alone in my own aspects of showing

Emotion to others, in ways I see fit

Love those closest to me, dear friends that emit 

A level of kindness, I implore, I surround myself with real light

Nothing fake, no threats that may blight

The path to enlightenment no matter how it embarrasses me so

Always back to you like clockwork with the answers I never know

And you never hold

Maybe one day I'll let go

Or maybe this wound has healed to a scar that lets me grace rather than prod

To find answers in the messiest of places, I have no forgot

Wisdom like that, having faith in the not knowing, a love that real

Thank you for coming back like clock work and letting me heal

In the idea of peace in solitude, the idea of being alone.

I once said if I couldn't have you, I didn't want to know.

I didn't want another and now I have discovered I don't.

It has taken me a handful of tries to find I am content in being alone

If you are happy in your own home

I want to find comfort in my own skin, enlightenment in this life

Comfort in friends that sing and family that smiles

Real, golden light that does not pretend to mask itself as romance

Peace in solitude and finding my own monk-hood in advance.

Thank you old lover, dear old friend, maybe someone on the same path of enlightenment

As me

Perhaps I'll see you somewhere in the end,

In another time and place, maybe, always changing but always the same face. 

You, ironically out of it all, have kept me sane. 

And that was when I knew, peace in solitude was the answer

When I discovered being with anyone else would not make the world spin faster.

I have to find it in my own being, comfort in being alone

Never again reaching out to find a romance that I cannot grow.

I am a singular, platonic creature that has loved only one

And if he is not here, then I simply give up

On the notion entirely until I find that enlightened path

Meet the answers to not have the answers, life's greatest bends. 

Thank you.

For helping me find the peace in my solitude to heal. 

~J.K.M.