2. A Definitive (Poetry)

-Fifty Seven-

Offered:

Realising to heal from trauma is the understanding that to live

Sadness and anger must coexist with happiness to be able to give

You a life that has meaning. 

They say my past has nothing to offer me but I beg to differ

Because using you as a footnote for inspiration has delivered 

The offering for control of my emotions in a way no one else could provide. 

Using the past as my experience for a youth gone awry 

I think to you and how to relax

Perhaps using your words of motivation that mean nothing 

As the kick in the back

To calm down and think, to have a moment to breathe

To live a life uncontrolled by animosity. 

It seems as if you have nothing left to offer me,

But the actuality is even if it is not the same old love from sixteen

You are still providing me with the lessons to live my life leisurely 

To not be disgraced by what people think

Pride and ego swallowed to live a life controlled by me

So thank you for not realising you have done anything at all

Because in my mind you have been a stature of inspiration to laugh

At myself and the situation of the life I'm in,

Living alone unromantically but loving so entirely platonically 

Thank you for the humour I needed to redirect my thinking.

Thank you for offering me a moment of clarity in peace

That you have not realised you offered me. 

~J.K.M.