He's My Secret (edited-ish)

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I need help!!!!

My day with him was nice but I wish he had expressed himself a little bit more. It seemed so hard to figure out what he was thinking at times.

By the end of the day, we took the bus halfway then walked the rest of the way.

I couldn't help remembering all the times I walked this very road with him, we've been threw Monday mornings, defending ourselves from robbers, walking back home awkwardly together, getting upset with each other, and ditching school together.
I sure hope our story will be one we look back at and smile at or even laugh about but surely not cry or feel sorrowful.

"Hold on," he said
"Before we near our destination." He continued.

I thought he had something important to say or at least was going to say something, but instead, he stepped in front of me, leaned down and kissed my cheek.

This caused an uncomfortable, uncontrollable smile to appear on my face.
I watched as the wind blew his hair that seriously needed to be cut as he stood up straight.

"You seriously need a hair cut." I started as I pulled on a few strands of it stretching it.

I was trying so hard for it not to show that I was affected by him, for some reason I wanted to be in control.

He only raised his eyebrows and shrugged when I removed my hand before we started walking again.

I exhaled softly, letting out the breath that I was holding. If I said being around Terrance didn't affect me then I would be lying.

But today was different, today was just really extra. I don't know if it's because we'd kissed the day before, or because today he smelled a lot like aftershave.

I'd always loved the smell of aftershave they all smelled great but Terrance's own made me feel like the smell of it was going to be my new addiction.

I had to resist the urge from inhaling deeply.

I didn't want him to see how affected I was although he's very observant and has probably noticed it already.

But I've seen how girls act when they're star-struck over a boy. They act all desperate and foolish and I refuse to act that way and that's just how I felt. It might have sounded stupid but it was just me I guessed. I wasn't playing 'hard to get' but rather normal as possible.

I mean what was the purpose of him even kissing me on the cheek, if I didn't know any better I'd think that he was trying to get a major reaction from me.

Why didn't he just kiss me on the lips? , maybe he wanted me to grab him by his shirt and pull him in. I mean that's what kinda always happens in the movies and that's what I felt like I wanted to do but personally, I think he should be the one who pulls me in.

I walked slowly behind him as I watched his form in front of me walking with his hands in his pocket.

"You should go to school tomorrow." He stated as he turned and walked into his yard.
I was about to ask why but he spoke again before I got a chance to.
"Can't have the school nerd fall behind, now can we." He smirked causing me to roll my eyes and walk away. I had told him today how everyone thinks that I'm a nerd.

Today was nice but in my mind, I was expecting more. I'd learned so much more about Terrance and yet I need ..........excitement and so much more.

I entered my house and the smell of pizza instantly attacked my nose.

'I had planned on making dinner and we would talk, but I had to leave so enjoy. Ps call me 'The note placed on the box said

I honestly appreciate this. I heated up two slices and sat on the sofa. I then dialled her number.

"Hello"

"Hi mom, it's me," I said as I took a bite.

"Hi darling, how was school?."

"Fine," I replied, I felt so dirty when it came to saying things that aren't true.

"That's good to hear, listen to what I have to tell you I can't over the phone, but anyway if you've noticed I haven't been home a lot lately." She paused

"That's because I got a promotion at work but it requires extra hours." She continued.

"That's great mom, you deserve it."

"Yea we'll hard work brings success I guess. Well, I'm gonna go I know you have homework to do."

"Yea. Bye, mom." I replied

"Bye sweetheart stay safe." She responded before I hang up.
I'd been wondering recently if she was ok, at least now I knew she was, she even sounded better than ok, she sounded great.

After eating the pizza I went upstairs took a bath, wrote off as much of the notes Alissa sent me as I could, watched a few videos on the internet for better understanding of the school works I was missing which was kind of difficult since I kept on looking over at Terrance window just in case I saw him walk past it.

After that, I brushed my teeth and went to bed.

I still replayed the kiss in my head, the feeling of his hand as it wrapped around my waist. The view of his pupils dilating just before I closed my eyes. The more I thought about it the more I seem to make sense of or maybe just overthinking about it.

Maybe I was just paranoid or maybe it's because all these feelings are new to me and I was absolutely loving it.

In a way it made me feel alive.

I need help with creating chapter titles. I mean I've gotten this far because of you guys.
You are all a major part of this book and I feel like y'all should have a part in this book.☺️☺️

Now, who's ready for some action, whose ready for a fight scene with Amanda.

Who's ready to see what Amanda is like when she's upset??!!.

Y'all ain't ready. Lol 😂 😝 😆

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