He's My Secret (edited-ish)

33 - simple things fade

I walked quickly down their driveway and went straight into Terrance's car.

He was leaning on the car but I walked past him and straight into the car.
He looked over at me for a while but said nothing when he came inside. I guess my facial expression was enough for him to know that I didn't want to talk about it.

I felt very reticent at that moment, and there was nothing that could change that at all right now.

Terrance started the car and we were off, heading back to our homes.

I took off the hat that was on my head and placed it on the back seat.

How could he just move in with a whole set of different people like this?

How could he have broken my mother's trust, my trust? I always thought they were happy together but I guess looks can be deceiving.

They weren't the quintessential couple but they were always perfect in my view.

All this made me feel confused in away and all the things that I've never noticed before were now revealing it's self to me.

The way how he would sometimes argue over money, or things such as buying too much food and not spending money wisely.

The late nights he came home, the hours he spent talking to unknown persons on the phone, it was all gradually making sense now and it made me feel sick for never noticing these small things before.

How could I not have, they've always been small but obvious, and being around Terrance lately has been giving me an understanding that the small things do matter. They matter a lot actually.

Like the smiles, he gives me, the way he looks at me, the way how he notices small things about me, the way he makes me feel by just looking at him or by just smelling his fragrance.

Did my parents even have those small things anymore? Will we lose those small things ?, I thought as I glimpsed over at Terrance's face as the street lights and vehicle lights reflected on his face.
I really didn't want to lose the simple things with us.

The car slowly came to a stop causing me to look up at the diner we were now parked in front of then over at Terrance.

Before I could say anything he spoke.

"I'm starving, aren't you?." He asked sounding a bit concerned.
I just couldn't help but think that this was one of those small things.

"Not really," I mumbled

"I'm going in there do you want anything? " he asked, but I shook my head no and watched as he smiled at me and left.

For some reason, I'd expected him to pressure me until I told him what I wanted, or was I hoping for too much, or were we already losing the small things? , I wondered as I watched him walk into the diner. My brain was seriously in overdrive.

I was totally overreacting and the thoughts of my parents had quickly changed to thoughts about Terrance and I.

I looked around my surroundings and saw that a bench was right beside the car.

My window was already down a bit but I needed the fresh cold air to surround me.

I opened the door and stepped outside the car. I closed the door behind me and walked over onto the grass where the bench was.

I sat down and once again looked around.
I could see straight into the diner since it was made of glass.

I watched as a group of girls giggled while looking over at Terrance at the counter, and even from where I was I could see the sweet sicking smile the cashier was giving him as he ordered.

I quickly tried to find something else to focus on only giving a few glimpses now and then back at the building.

I ended up getting lost in my mind as I looked down at my hands in thought at some point.

I was forced out of my mind when someone sat really close to me.

"You ok?." He asked causing me to nod a yes as I looked over at him. His smell caused my senses to go num and the fact that he was sitting so close to me, I had to resist the urge from fidgeting and tried to keep my breathing under control.

"What's in the bag?." I asked curiously.

"Well, I've seen you eat apples so I bought you an apple juice." He said as he took it out of the bag and handed it to me.

"Their food didn't look eatable to me so I bought nutrition bars. I got one with honey, chocolate and another with nuts." He stated as he held them up for me to choose.

"My family has a lot of persons in it who are severely allergic to peanuts so I don't really mess with it," I stated as I choose the honey one.

The sun was gone and there were a few stars in the sky.

"Thanks," I said to him with a wide smile but it soon vanished.

"What's wrong?."

"Do you think this will fade," I asked him as I used my hand to indicate us.

"You can't live your life wondering if it will turn out like your parents Manda." He replied.

"That's not what I asked."

"But it was what you were thinking of." He said causing me to look up at him.

"Look, our life's are whatever we choose to make it, our parents might scare us a bit along the way but it's still our life." He stated as he looked away from me and up at the stars in the sky causing me to do the same.

"And how can it fade when it hardly even begins." He said, his eyes snapped back down at me.

"we're truly only at the beginning, and we're cruising threw." He said softly causing chills to run threw my body and my breath to hitch in my throat.
I wasn't sure what he really meant by that but my mind had already interpreted it in its own way.

"Let's go, you have my company to keep tomorrow and church on Sunday." He told me as he got up and took my hand pulling me along as we walked back over to his car and I followed.

We went back in the car ate our bars while listening to music and drove home, very soon after a while I fell asleep.

My afternoon was exhausting and stressful. I personally believed that I deserved a nap.

At least I had this boy by my side. I was still trying to figure him out though.

Even though I found it attractive how his face is almost always serious and that he wasn't afraid to knock the lights out of anyone who made him upset, I knew that there was something up with him and for some reason, it only made me more interested and drawn to him.
Curiously I guess.

Should I put a chapter showing types to clothes you'd expect to see the characters in ???

Do y'all want a cute kissing scene that will make you say 'Awwwww', Or 'they are totally my favourite couple'? , Or even  'that is so couple goals'

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