He's My Secret (edited-ish)

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It wasn't impossible that someone had pushed the letter into my locker but then the place where it was placed or where I found it said something different.

Maybe I had moved it out of my way when I was placing my math book in and didn't realize it.

I didn't take it out of my locker until the end of the day.

Why? , well because no one sends letters anymore, why would we send letters to each other when we have the internet which allows us to send an email, texts or even call someone right away it's way simpler than a letter.
Plus it would have drawn unwanted attention.

I mean imagine your at school and you see one of your friends take out a letter, tear it open and starts to read. I know I would be curious about what they were reading, as I said no one really uses letters anymore and if I was thinking like that then I know others would be thinking that way also, at least one person had to.

I walked back to my locker quickly as the bell rang signalling that school was over, I placed the letter in between two of my books and placed them in my bag.

I then quickly went to the bus stop and in no time I was on my way home.

I wonder what it was about ?, I couldn't help but examine it once I was on the bus.

It was square in shape and was a little more than half of my palm in size. The paper had flower patterns on it and seemed more like a package than a letter but it was obvious that nothing more than paper was in it and yes I did shake it and tried to feel if anything was in there.

It seemed like paper or maybe even nothing at all.

This odd-looking letter with my first name written on it in cursive might as well be the death of me. I had to admit this person had good taste decoratively of course. Maybe it was from Alissa.

I had opened the letter as soon as I stepped off the bus and started walking down the street towards my house.

I tore one side of it and tried to look down in it without placing it close to my face. I only saw a folded piece of paper in it. I calmly took it out still cautious of the thing and unfolded it.

There was a passage out of a book I had on my bedside table printed on the paper and nothing else.

What was this supposed to mean ?- I asked myself, but it was something I couldn't answer.

I placed the letter back in my bag and increased my walking speed.

I had an idea of which book the passage had come from but I wasn't sure, I've read so many books that it was hard to keep track of every meaningful passage that was in each one.

I dropped my bag as I entered my room, took out the paper from the letter once again and started to look.

"Where is it? , Where is it ?." I mumbled as I looked for a particular book, the book in which Terrance had been reading about a month or a couple of weeks ago.

The days have been going by so fast it's almost impossible to keep track and I've never been the type of girl who needs a diary to keep track of her life, that was always Anellea's thing to do not mine.

I finally found the book Terrance had been reading and how could I not have noticed this before.
Out of all the books that were there this was the only one that didn't end in a happy way. The characters ended up living the life's they always wanted but just not with each other, so in a way, they were happy but not truly happy, if that makes any sense at all. They ended up wanting to lose everything if it meant that they would be together but the greed of what they wanted to be had pushed them apart.

It was a nice book that expresses true key points in an average person life, but what was an average life.

I had asked myself that question so many times while reading this book.

It basically describes an average person as someone who knows what they want in life and works towards it, they are not rich nor poor and has a life without excitement but then again the two main characters had wanted each other so badly but hardly made any effort towards it and had brought excitement in each other's lives.

Each chapter had a meaningful passage at the top, like a quote, poem, a few lines of a song or a motto. It confused you at first when you read it but gave you an idea of what would happen in the chapter.

By the end of reading the chapter though everything would be understood and the reason why that passage was placed at the beginning would be clear and would make more sense. I believe that by doing that the author was trying to make a point in some way, I mean each passage was different, made no sense and seemed to be random but by the end of reading a chapter it made sense, it then meant so much more than just jumbled words but I've never gotten time to really put any thought into it.

I skipped threw the book going to each chapter trying to find the chapter that had the passage that was on the letter I received.
When I finally found it I was seriously shocked. All the pages of that chapter were gone except for the page that held the passage on it and a few paragraphs of the chapter.

How dear he tear out my book pages, this was seriously unappreciated. I take pride in all the books I read and I don't like when my books get destroyed.

After reading the first paragraph that was on the page I remembered how the chapter went so I really didn't see the sense of him tearing out the pages.

The two main characters had basically gone against each other once again and the main guy for the first time ever saw it as a need to be the better person and apologize but then the main female with her huge pride thought that by doing this he was calling her a child and that she was immature.

By the end of the chapter or mid-end, I think she explained that they were neither to be blamed for their actions, thoughts or behaviour because it is natural nature instinct for two kings to fight for their position.

The rest is fuzzy and I don't really remember it but I remember that much, that this chapter was mostly but not all about forgiveness, forgiving or taking the blame.

Was that what this letter meant?