Mahal Kita Pero (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 33

"So, saan na ang gora natin?" Justine asked right after we finished watching a movie.

"Can we go to the department store? Shopping sana for Batangas trip tomorrow."

"Wow. Sosyalerang bakla talaga 'tong friend natin. Batangas agad tomo." Biro ni Justine.

"Speaking of, are you guys available for tomorrow? Until Monday night sana." I invited them but deep inside, I want them to say no.

"Hindi keri, besh. May SK duties ang lola mo." I faked a frown pagkasabi ni Den noon.

"Di rin makakasama ang diyosa ng karagatan. Family time ganern."

"Sayang naman. Nagyayaya kasi si Yuji and kaming dalawa lang if ever kasi di rin pwede si Matt."

"Baka magkatuluyan kayo niyan, girl." I don't know if it was a joke by Den or she's really serious about that.

"Imposible. Hindi na rin naman siya yata babalik dito, e." I disappointedly stated.

"Ha?" Both of them asked looking real curious about it.

"Siya na nagsabi. Babalik daw siya sa Japan and baka hindi na daw siya makabalik dito." I tried to sound normal about it but who am I trying to lie to?

"Alam mo, nakakalungkot naman talaga if hindi na siya babalik. But right now, you sound so sad. Gusto mo siya?" Walang prenong tanong ni Den. I paused a little after that. Shall I admit?

"Hindi naman kita masisisi if totoo kasi sobrang bet naman talaga ng kuya mo." Justine added.

"Fine. Hindi ko rin sure." I admitted. "Nakakainis kasi dahil sa thesis na 'to, hindi ko na alam. Nababaitan ako sa kanya, may hitsura siya and lagi ko siyang kasama kaya hindi ko naman masisisi 'yung sarili ko if totoong nagkagusto na ako sa kanya." I continued. "But if those are my reasons, really, I would be unfair to Matt."

"Bakit naman nadamay si Matt dito?" Tanong ni Den.

"He is my best friend. Bata pa lang kami, kasama ko na siya. Mabait siya sobra. He considers me in all aspects and he adjusts really well sa lahat ng gusto and ayaw ko. And admit it, may hitsura siya." I answered.

"Ano naman ngayon? Bakit siya parang hadlang na magustuhan mo si Yuji?" Den curiously asked.

"Bet mo din siguro, 'no?" Justine guessed.

"No!" I denied. Hindi ko naman talaga gusto si Matt. Mahal ko siya pero alam kong dahil lang 'to sa pagiging magkaibigan namin. "Trust me, I tried to. Kasi gusto kong masuklian lahat ng ginagawa niya for me but really, I can not feel the same way na nararamdaman niya."

"Ha?" They were obviously shocked by what I told them.

"He is courting me. He told me na gusto niya ako but you should not love someone just because you are happy, 'di ba? You love someone because that's true. Ganoon dapat, tama?" I revealed.

"And you should not say yes just because he deserves it. You'll say yes because you feel like doing so." Again, Den made sense. And that's the reason why I shouldn't just say yes to Matt.

"Okay naman na i-consider mo si Matt sa feelings mo for Yuji pero paano ka?" The look of concern was evident to Justine's face after asking that.

"Hindi naman na yata mahalaga. Iiwan din naman niya tayo."